#feat. cool ex Adam

[cockybusiness]

Gotta show you something

[cardest]

London playlist

London - since 43 AD it has to be one of the more fascinating cities on Earth. Such a rich history. From Shakespeare Theatre to the music from there today. I just had to put a London playlist together. From Soho to Brixton, from Highgate to Clapham  what a collection of songs! It’s over 350 songs and it could easily expand to 400. **I have a separate England & Wales playlist coming, so, stay tuned for that**.

To play the songs, hit the link right here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-iHPcxymC1_ntP663JhZl-hvn9EwFp9L

ENGLAND & WALES playlist is coming soon! What songs have I left out? Let me know! Add your own songs! Cheers. Pip pip, tally ho!

LONDON 001 Generation X -  Day By Day 002 The Clash - London Calling 003 Austin Powers  - theme song (Soul Bossa? Nova ) 004 The Kinks - Dedicated Follower Of Fashion 005 Killing Joke - Empire Song 006 Black Sabbath - Wicked World 007 The Who - Welcome 008 The Damned - Neat, neat, neat 009 GIRLSCHOOL - LONDON 010 007 theme song 011 Motorhead - Motorhead 012 Wire - Ex Lion Tamer 013 David Bowie - Maid of Bond Street 014 The Misfits - London Dungeon 015 Rolling Stones - 016 The Adverts - Bored Teenagers 017 Siouxsie & The Banshees -  Spellbound 018 Penny Dreadful - Soundtrack - Main Theme 019 Eurythmics - Love Is A Stranger 020 The Cure - Subway Song 021 Adam And The Ants -  Puss 'n' Boots 022 Iron Maiden - 22 Acacia Avenue 023 COIL - Fire of the mind 024 Public Image Ltd - One Drop. 025 LUSH - Breeze 026 Bliss Signal - Surge 027 The Pogues - Misty Morning, Albert Bridge 028 PhD - Won't Let You Down 029 Birthday Party - Hats On Wrong 030 Eddy Grant - Electric Avenue 031 Help Yourself - Reaffirmation 032 Grave Miasma - Gnosis of the summon 033 Roy Ayers - We Live In London Baby 034 Led Zeppelin - The Rover 035 Gang of Four - What we all want 036 Pet Shop Boys - West End Girl                 037 Sleaford Mods - 6 Horsemen (The Brixtons) 038 Paul Young - Love of the Common People 039 The Saint (original) - Theme 040 The Human League - Dont You Want Me 041 Sex Pistols - God Save The Queen 042 The Beatles - A Day In The Life 043 Def Leppard -  Love bites 044 The Stranglers - Another Camden Afternoon 045 The Kinks  - See My Friends 046 Elton John - Bennie and the Jets 047 Suede - Moving 048 Queen - Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy 049 Cliff Richard & the Shadows - She's Gone 050 The Rolling Stones - Start Me Up 051 Loop - Fade Out 052 Jah Wobble's Invaders Of The Heart - A13 053 The Magnetic Fields - All the Umbrellas in London 054 Wendy Carlos - Title Music From A Clockwork Orange (From Purcell's Music For The Funeral Of Queen Mary) 055 The Police - Every Little Thing she does it Magic 056 Cockney Rejects - The Greatest Cockney Rip Off 057 Spandau Ballet - Spandau Ballet Chant No.1 058 The Pretenders - Middle of the Road 059 The Who - Dogs 060 The Jam - London Girl 061 Cradle of Filth - Hurt and Virtue 062 Joy Division - Isolation 063 Nick Drake - At the Chime of a City Clock 064 Sham 69 - Cockney Kids Are Innocent 065 Deep Purple - Mandrake Root 066 Throbbing Gristle - Hit by a rock 067 David Bowie - Rubber Band 068 Roxy Music  - Do The Strand 069 Slaves - Cheer Up London 070 T. Rex - London Boys 071 Kirsty MacColl - Autumngirlsoup 072 New Model Army - Archway Towers 073 Scorpions - Lovedrive 074 Isaac Hayes - Doesnt Rain In London 075 Peter Tosh - Buk-In-Hamm Palace 076 The Slits - Typical Girls 077 Pharaoh Sanders - Midnight In Berkeley Square (Instrumental) 078 Blue Cheer - Girl From London 079 Sex Pistols - Satellite 080 Judas Priest - (The Hellion ) Electric Eye 081 UFO -  Lights Out 082 Joy Division - Digital 083 Muse - Uprising 084 George Harrison - All Things Must Pass 085 Robert Palmer - Addicted To Love 086 Fine Young Cannibals - Blue 087 New Order - Blue Monday 088 Würzel - Midnight In London 089 Rod Stewart - Gasoline Alley 090 The Wildhearts - Down On London 091 Supertramp - Nothing To Show 092 Motörhead - Metropolis 093 Current 93 - Lucifer Over London 094 The Pogues - Dark Streets of London 095 The Cult - All Souls Avenue 096 The Jam - In The City 097 The Undertones - Teenage Kicks 098 Iggy Pop -  Play It Safe 099 Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - Jack the Ripper 100 The Cure  - Lets Go To Bed 101 Suede - Animal Nitrate 102 Wire - field day for the sundays 103 Black Books  TV Show - Opening Theme 104 Paul McCartney & Wings - London Town 105 Madness - Primrose Hill 106 The Troggs  - No. 10 Downing Street 107 Iron Maiden -  Gangland 108 PJ Harvey - The Last Living Rose 109 The Rollers - Soho 110 Electric Wizard - Lucifer's Slaves 111 The Buzzcocks -  Just Lust 112 Doctor Who Theme Tune 1980 113 Cathedral - Fountain Of Innocence 114 Pretenders - Swinging London 115 Hanoi Rocks - Tooting Bec Wreck 116 Es - 'Chemical 117 Bee Gees  - Trafalgar 118 The Peddlers    - Under London Lights 119 Cliff Richard - The Young Ones 120 Big Audio Dynamite - Sightsee M.C   121 ABC - Tower of London 122 Accept - London Leatherboys 123 Pitchshifter - Please Sir 124 Portishead -  We Carry On 125 John Lennon - Whatever Gets You Thru The Night 126 The Lurkers - Ain't Got a Clue 127 Iron Maiden - Die with your boots on 128 Siouxsie and the Banshees - Kiss Them For Me 129 Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds - From Her to Eternity 130 The Jam - London Traffic 131 The Cranberries - Waiting In Walthamstow 132 The Kinks - Victoria 133 Heads Hands & Feet - Pete Might Spook The Horses 134 Whitesnake -  Long Way From Home 135 Queensryche - London 136 Concrete Blonde - Walking in London 137 Deep Purple - Fireball 138 The Ruts - dope for guns 139 Wham! - Bad Boys 140 Generation X - One Hundred Punks 141 Joe Jackson - Down To London 142 Anti-Nowhere League - Streets of London 143 The Wildhearts - Shandy Bang 144 David Bowie - The London Boys 145 The Human League - Human 146 Cockney Rejects - East end 147 Dire Straits - Eastbound Train 148 Ian Drury - Hit Me With Your Rhythm Stick 149 Sepultura -  Filthy rot 150 The Jam - Down In The Tube Station At Midnight 151 Fine Young Cannibals - She Drives Me Crazy 152 Purson -  Electric Landlady 153 Black Sabbath -  Tomorrow's Dream 154 The Clash - Guns of Brixton 155 Blood Ceremony - Lord Of Misrule 156 Monty Pythons The Meaning of Life - Penis Song 157 Gentlemans Pistols -  Hustler's Row 158 Frankie Goes To Hollywood - Relax 159 Jethro Tull - Cross Eyed Mary 160 The Yobs - The Ballad of the Warrington 161 Cradle of Filth - Principle Of Evil Made Flesh 162 Bruce Hornsby - The Black Rats Of London 163 Inspiral Carpets - How It Should Be 164 The Jimi Hendrix Experience - Foxy Lady 165 PETULA CLARK - WINCHESTER CATHEDRAL 166 Lush - Olympia 167 Hunters & Collectors - Blind Eye 168 Thompson Twins - Hold Me Now 169 David Bowie - The Man Who Sold the World 170 UK Subs - C.I.D. 171 Queen - Dont Stop Me Now 172 Bruce Dickinson - Accident of Birth 173 the clash - capital radio one 174 UB40 - Here I Am (Come And Take Me) 175 The Meads Of Asphodel - Guts For Sale 176 Horrible Histories: Savage Songs - Boudicca 177 Swallow the Sun - Labyrinth Of London (Horror Pt. IV) 178 Mad Professor  - Ben Gone Wrong 179 Howard Jones - Things Can Only Get Better 180 Genesis - The Battle Of Epping Forest 181 The Damned -  problem child 182 Squeeze  - Cool For Cats 183 Manfred Mann - Belgravia 184 The Bee Gees - Walking Back to Waterloo 185 Pink Floyd - Waiting For The Worms 186 Madness - Victoria Gardens 187 Paradise Lost - Soul Courageons 188 YES  - Roundabout 189 PJ Harvey - This Is Love 190 The Horrors - Jack The Ripper 191 King Crimson - Red 192 The Smiths - How Soon Is Now 193 Level 42 - Heathrow 194 Intaferon - Get Out Of London 195 Burt Bacharach - Bond street 196 David Bowie - Ziggy Stardust 197 The Clash - Londons Burning 198 Killing Joke - Follow The Leaders 199 Saxon - The Court of the Crimson King 200 Buzzcocks - Harmony in My Head 201 Fairport Convention - Fiddlesticks (Peel Session) 202 Napalm Death - Errors In The Signals 203 Empire  - Hot Seat 204 Anathema - Shroud of Frost 205 Pitchshifter - Condescension 206 The Beatles - Hey Jude 207 Affinity - Highgate 208 KLF - 3 A.M. Eternal (Pure Trance) 209 Warren Zevon - Werewolves of London 210 David Axelrod - London 211 The Wombles - Wellington Goes To Waterloo 212 EastEnders Theme 213 Cathedral - Hypnos 164 214 Tom Jones - It's Not Unusual 215 Alan Moore with Tim Perkins - The Highbury Working A Beat Seance 216 Transvision Vamp - Sex Kick 217 Elton John - Tell Me When The Whistle Blows 218 Firebird - Bow bells 219 The Jam - A' Bomb In Wardour Street 220 Caravan  - Waterloo Lily 221 Lord Sutch & Heavy Friends - Flashing Lights 222 David Bowie - Oh! You Pretty Things 223 Hot Chocolate - West End of Park Lane 224 Thames television ident 1984 225 Newtown Neurotics - Living With Unemployment 226 Peter Murphy - Cuts You Up 227 Suede - Metal Mickey 228 Peter Gabriel - Sledgehammer 229 Killing Joke - The Gathering 230 Rolling Stones - You Can't Always Get What You Want 231 Kate Bush - Babooshka 232 Iron Maiden - The Prophecy 233 The Cure - Disintegration 234 The Damned - I Just Can't Be Happy Today 235 WIRE - Silk Skin Paws 236 Brian Eno - Here Come The Warm Jets 237 Souixee & the Banshees - Cascade 238 Jethro Tull - Jeffrey Goes to Leicester Square 239 AC/DC -  Rising Power 240 Alternative TV - Life After Life 241 Napalm Death - Deceiver (Peel Sessions) 242 Electric Light Orchestra - Last Train To London 243 Bucks Fizz - London Town 244 The Sweet - Blockbuster! 245 999 - Bent Cross 246 The Groundhogs - Split, Pt. 1 247 Bow Wow Wow - Go Wild in the Country 248 Blood Ceremony -  Half Moon Street 249 Ming Tea feat. Austin Powers - BBC One 250 Led Zeppelin - Immigrant Song 251 Big Audio Dynamite - EMC2 252 Crass - Banned from the Roxy 253 Sleaford Mods - Chaos Down In SoHo 254 Big Ben Chimes of Westminster, London 255 PJ Harvey - A Place Called Home 256 The Ruts - Staring at the rude boys 257 The Times - Whatever Happened To Thames Beat 258 Quincy Jones - London Derriere 259 Lush - Hypocrite 260 PIL - Reggie Song 261 The Style Council - You're The Best Thing 262 UK Subs - Dirty Girls 263 COIL - Slur 264 Frank Zappa - Dead girls of London 265 Iron Maiden - Prowler 266 The Slits - Difficult Fun 267 Killing Joke -  Kings and Queens 268 Simple Minds - Chelsea Girl 269 Motorhead - Bomber 270 XTC - Towers Of London 271 Blitzkrieg  - Hell to pay 272 Gryphon - Opening Move 273 The Challengers - The Streets of London 274 Peggy March - In Der Carnaby Street 275 The Damned - Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde 276 The Pogues - London You're a Lady 277 The Lords Of The New Church - Portobello 278 Rolling Stones - Hot Stuff 279 Joe Jackson - The Evil Eye 280 The Deviants - Garbage 281 Benny Hill Show  - Wild Women 282 Suzi Quatro - Crash 283 Madness - day on the town 284 SHAKESPEAR'S SISTER -  I Don't Care 285 Whitesnake - Wine Women An Song 286 Pink Floyd - Astronomy Domine 287 Rick Astley - Whenever You Need Somebody 288 Bauhaus - In the flat field 289 Dead Can Dance - In Power We Entrust The Love Advocated 290 Paul McCartney -  Old Siam, Sir 291 Lush - De-Luxe 292 AC/DC - let's get it up 293 Sophia Loren & Peter Sellers - Bangers and mash 294 Black Sabbath - Childfren of the grave 295 Psychic TV - The orchids 296 Miracle - The Strife Of Love In A Dream 297 Carter USM - Lean On Me I Won't Fall Over 298 Screaming Lord Sutch - Jack the Ripper 299 WIRE - the 15th 300 Mott the Hoople - Honaloochie Boogie 301 Soft Machine - The Camden Tandem 302 Are You Being Served Theme 303 CATHEDRAL - Serpent Eve 304 Booker T. & The MG's - Carnaby Street 305 Culture Club - It's A Miracle 306 Motorhead - Nothing Up My Sleeve 307 Killing Joke - Money is not our God 308 Bronski Beat - Smalltown Boy 309 WIRE - Please take 310 Bananarama - Hey young London 311 The Jam - Carnaby Street 312 Catapilla - Charing Cross   313 The Shadows - Chelsea Boot 314 Ride - Chelsea Girl 315 The Damned  - Grimly Fiendish 316 Marillion - Chelsea Monday 317 Slowdive - Celia's Dream 318 The Clash - Gates of the west 319 Thin Lizzy - Half Caste 320 David Bowie -  I dig everything 321  VUUR - Days Go By - London 322 Elvis Costello - [I Don't Want To Go To] Chelsea 323 Uriah Heep - Walking in your shadow 324 Genesis - Invisible Touch 325 Amy Winehouse - Me & Mr Jones 326 Curve - Fait Accompli   327 Silverfish ‎- Crazy 328 Iron Maiden - Killers 329 Killing Joke -  Ghost Of Ladbroke Grove 330 Sex Pistols - Anarchy In The UK 331 Paradise lost - remembrance 332 The Fall - Leave the Capitol 333 The Kinks - Waterloo Sunset 334 WIRE - Keep exhaling 335 The Peddlers - raining in London 336 Motorhead - damage case 337 10cc - Shock On The Tube (Don't Want Love) 338 Swervedriver - Rave Down 339 Spike Milligan - Tower Bridge 340 Phil Lynott - Solo In Soho 341 Adam and the Ants - Plastic Surgery 342 The Who - Pinball wizard 343 Pulp - Mile end 344 Generation X - Running with the Boss Sound 345 OMD - If You Leave 346 PiL - Public Image 347 Monty Python's Flying Circus TV show - theme song 348 Hall & Oates - London, Luck & Love 349 The Horrors - Three decades 350 Cathedral - Midnight Mountain 351 Killing Joke - glitch 352 Judas Priest - The Ripper 353 Air Raid Siren London Blitz 354 Dragonforce - Fury and the storm 355 Elastica - Connection 356 the Psychedelic Furs - Dumb waiters 357 Samantha Fox - Touch me 358 Wang Chung - Dance hall days 359 Kim Wilde - Water on glass 360 Siouxsie and the Banshees - Overground 361 Atomic Rooster - Tomorrow night 362 Fleetwood Mac - My Heart Beat Like a Hammer 363 Rainbow - Self Portrait 364 Billy Ocean - Love really hurts without you 365 Art of Noise - Beat box (division one) 366 Eurythmics - Never Gonna Cry Again 367 Samson - Grime Crime 368 Go West - we close our eyes 369 Ultravox - Saturday Night In The City Of The Dead 370 King Crimson - 21st Century Schizoid Man 371 Visage - Visage 372 Sandy Denny - Let's Jump The Broomstick 373 Brian Eno - Burning Airlines Give You So Much More 374 Fields Of The Nephilim - Blue water 375 Leftfield - Open Up 376 Blancmange - I've Seen The Word 377 Thomas Dolby - Flying north 378 Sisters of Mercy - Temple of love 379 Royal Orchestra - Royal Entrance Queen Elizabeth II 380 Pink Floyd - Goodbye blue sky 666 David Bowie -  London Bye Ta - Ta 

Play the songs here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-iHPcxymC1_ntP663JhZl-hvn9EwFp9L

[gofancyninjaworld]

I know you're not one for discussing power scaling that much, but what is your opinion on how reddit (general) constantly lowballs Genos, then consider weaker feats of other characters better than his own feats of strength? It just seems almost.... weird to me? It's like people hold a grudge against Genos for, existing, I guess? And when did this trend even start?

It's a long answer that is grounded in psychology. While the character himself is fictional and it's by no means a serious situation, nevertheless I've found the way people respond a surprisingly real-life object lesson.

As for the whole powerscaling thing that's become awfully popular, that's a purely fictional construct and is just froth. It's irritating as this is a story designed to frustrate attempts to make like-for-like comparisons and which tries to capture some of the complexity of actual conflict, but folk will have their fun. I think nothing of it. I think it's driven mostly by YouTubers who need to have something to engage their OPM viewers about day after day to stay monetised -- it's hard work. More power to them.

1. Anchoring Bias. One of the headaches of teaching people is that we don't actually learn that well from evidence. We need to check with our pre-existing impressions and beliefs before we'll accept it. All human beings do it, it gives us some degree of stability in our understanding of the world, but it easily goes too far. I don't know if you've ever watched Mythbusters, but in revisiting the episode of the lead balloon, Adam Savage said something I found extremely relevant: he said that there was no inertia in [Jamie's] ability to change his mind, praising the latter's quickness to change his mind in response to new information. [link to the whole segment]

As a group, Redditors have a very strong anchoring bias, a very high mental inertia if you will. You can see it in the way they get upset whenever something in the manga does not correspond to the webcomic, or doesn't happen in the way they thought it would. Oy vey. Characters too, impressions are anchored early and are very slow to shift. It's anchored in minds that Genos is a loser, and certainly when he started out he was pretty damn bad at what he did. Other characters are anchored as winners and their actions are read much more lightly. If mental gymnastics need to be taken to make new information 'fit' that anchor, they will be done. Like if Metal Bat were seen the same way that Genos is, the time he broke free of the chains Erimin and Destro had bound him in, you would have seen posts questioning the toughness of the chains and the quality of the binding. You know, 'just asking', the sort of thing that seems superficially critical in isolation... until you realise it's not asked of others.

2. Key Opinion Leaders. There may be half a million subscribers on Reddit, but functionally, there's only about 50 members who have a loud enough voice to sway the sub one way or the other. They're the Key Opinion Leaders. It's the case for *all* human groupings. Even scientific and medical fields have their KOLs and if you want something to be accepted, you need only persuade them and the rest fall largely in line.

3. The Halo Effect. A basic problem of human psychology is that if we have a positive impression of a person, we'll think everything they do is that bit better. And vice versa.

A character with a great halo is Bang. Who doesn't like a cool old dude with martial arts moves? And he's an awesome and likeable character. The positive light in which he's seen is all but independent of what can actually be observed about him, which is much less rosy. The fact that in a field where disciples are generally loyal and ex-masters are held in esteem for decades, he has few with any loyalty to him? He may be strong but so far, every time he's intervened to help Genos out of a situation the latter can't cope with, he hasn't so much gotten him out of the situation as joined him in the crap. You won't catch anyone calling him a jobber though (no hero should be called a jobber for the record).

If the halo changes, it's shocking how quickly a character's actions will be interpreted differently. Popular opinion was that Sweet Mask could do no right even if his critical stance on hero work being done right and seen to be done right was spot on. And now that he's a more sympathetic character, nothing he does can be wrong, even though he *is* a raging asshole at times, like a lot of the time. Both are bad takes.

The halo effect works against Genos. The whys don't matter, it's the fact of its existence that does. It means that no matter how well he is doing, his actions are always going to be seen more negatively than if other characters did the same thng. It's funny that since your post landed in my in box, we've had a manga chapter in which it's finally occurred to many that Genos is actually heroic. How long that will last and what effect if any it'll have in modulating folks' opinions of him we will just have to see.

Like I said, this is a fictional character and no harm is being done. It's just a fascinating object lesson in how you can have severe bias against someone without any explicit bigotry. Also the truth of 'give a dog a bad name and hang him.' It's also a salutatory reminder of why English (or other language of instruction) literature is such a valuable class. Because it encourages you to read and think about texts critically for both explicit and implicit meaning and once you learn to spot the patterns, you can see it better IRL.

[oneweekoneband]

shouldn’t gay taylor swift fans be given access to the original homophobic version of "picture to burn”? and other post-evermore reflection questions.

Did yesterday last twice as long as a regular day? Does anyone else feel like pulled taffy today or is that the four red wine spritzers I made myself with Sutter Home mini bottles of cab and cherry flavored seltzer? How long has it been since Taylor Swift has been to an Olive Garden? Is the part in “willow” where she’s like “You know that my train could take you home / anywhere else is hollow” about pegging? Does Taylor Swift understand even a basic sketch of the events of The Great Gatsby, a novel commonly assigned in school to teenaged children? Is Taylor implying on “marjorie” that her grandmother is a ghost? Is it weird of me to think it is nice that Taylor believes her grandmother is a ghost? Do I believe my grandmother is a ghost? Is it weird of me to think it is nice to wonder if maybe she might be? Is “gold rush” obviously for the Kaylors, or am I just being prejudiced against men’s theoretical right to be good looking? Last night I peeled myself up from a circle at the foot of the bed and poured hot sauce into canned minestrone soup when I realized it was already hours past dark. After it warmed on the stove I ate on our cramped front porch at the little painted table that is dirty all the time from just the air, I guess, even if you wipe it down twice a day, so when I see it I think of my lungs covered in dust too. But last night it was cool outside and I wanted to get as much air inside of me as possible, dirty or not, before the time came to crack southward at the waist, fall hard, with all my weight, down to my knees, and supplicate myself most disgracefully at the feet of the Lord’s most terrible daughter. The new Taylor Swift album became available at nine pm pacific time. Will there ever be salvation?

Has Taylor Swift ever met up with high school friends in a bar over the holidays and wanted to cry a little the entire time, feeling a battle in her own body between the parts inclined to slide back into the shape of an old self to fit and the hardened parts that can’t? I don’t really think so! But with “’tis the season” she has written a song about fucking your ex while home for Christmas anyway, and it slaps. It is always a wonderful treat when this anthropomorphized Tiffany platinum tennis bracelet sits herself down and writes up a pretty little fiction about the small and ugly things that normal human people do. This is what makes “All Too Well”—a perfect piece of autofiction about her fake boyfriend Jake Gyllenhaal—so good, though if you say that in certain company the reaction is like you’ve shot a dog. When Taylor spins me some shit like this, like about parking out by the Methodist to meet up in those strange, stretchy days at the very end of December for theoretically casual sex that you’ll think about sadly on the plane when you go, I accept it like a pomegranate seed plopped on my tongue by Hades himself and I thank her. If I wanted to know who you were hanging with while I was gone, I would have asked you!!!!!!!!

Why doesn’t Taylor just call this a bunch of b sides that didn’t fit right on folklore? That’s what it is. And why deny that? They’re largely very good b sides. I love “dorothea”. Do you love “dorothea”?  Are you still the same soul I met under the bleachers???? If Taylor really is going to release a third part of this moody forest saga come March, will the government show some real leadership for once and declare a purge so that we the people might rise up and bring this despot to the justice she so richly deserves? Why is Taylor Swift the Patricia Clarkson in Sharp Objects to our sweating and shaking Amy Adams? Why do our mouths loll open helplessly to accept her poison spoon when proffered? Mama, please... Do you think, strictly within the cinematic universe of “no body, no crime (feat. Haim)”, wherein Olive Garden regular Taylor Swift avenges canonically murdered Haim sister Este by killing her husband and (my favorite bit) implicitly framing the mistress, that after all that is squared away she and alive Haim sister Danielle bang it out? Why did the lilting piano ballad, “champagne problems”, about refusing a marriage proposal from a college boyfriend make me cry this morning on my pathetic little walk around the neighborhood? Was I thinking of the night I was 22 when I said no and no and no then yes to a drunk boy asking me with flashlight eyes to give him a nonsense forever promise, which I did because I knew in the morning we’d have forgotten, or would pretend to? Is it because I know that night so well, can still feel and smell and see, though I never mentioned it to anyone, everything about the few hours in the dark where I fought sleep because it felt nice pretending I was someone I knew I couldn’t be? Or was it just because on Twitter someone made a video setting the song to clips of Sersh & Timmy frolicking together wearing the same vest in Little Women? Is “coney island (feat. The National)” the first duet between Taylor and a man that isn’t an atrocity and an attack or is that purely my Matt Berninger derangement disorder speaking? Is “coney island (feat. The National)” degrading my nervous system like a wasting disease even as we speak? Did I close my fist around something delicate???? Did I shatter you??????? Will my own horrible hand ever come out of the Arthur meme clenched fist into which it furiously curled when I first listened to the, yes, fine, extremely lovely “coney island (feat. The National)”??????? It’s been almost a full day and typing like this isn’t very efficient.

Is “cowboy like me” my dual reward for fighting with so many annoying guys in my “The Cowboy in the American Imagination” class lo those many years ago and, plus, for always believing that country Taylor would never die for good? Did Taylor Swift watch Brokeback Mountain for the first time this year? Would Taylor Swift like me to email her a pdf of the Annie Proulx story? Does Taylor Swift want to buy me the too expensive D.S. & Durga “Cowboy Grass” perfume I’ve been coveting for years? Is all cowboy content inherently queer? Just kidding—that one isn’t a question. Now that Taylor is once more in the business of recreational yeehawing shouldn’t she, as a gesture of goodwill, make the forbidden original homophobic version of “Picture to Burn” available exclusively to those gay fans who wish to have it? (i.e. the elite gay fans with a sense of history and place.) Does she not owe us that much? Isn’t that really the only respectful thing to do? Is it not the very, very least this monster could do?

[openheartfanfics]

Ethan x F!MC: Angst

One Shots Q-T

Que Sera Sera - @liaromancewriter Ⓜ When Ethan and Cassie agree not to have any children, little do they realize life has other plans for them.

Rain - @beckaroo  Extended version of the car drive scene of 2.12.

Real Talk - @coffeeheartaddict2   Ethan has apologised and given for context for his Amazon sojourn but they have a more in depth, no holds barred discussion to clear the air so they can move forward in their romantic relationship.

Red Light - @alina-yol-ramsey  Ethan drives MC home after they met at Donahue’s. Ethan's POV.

Redamancy - @monsoonblooms12  The curtain of life threatens to fall, and the circumstances lead to a confession (set in Book 2, Chapter 11)

Regret - @miss-smrxtiee  All it takes is 5 minutes for his world to turn his world upside down. 2.11 Rewrite.

Remember Me - @chaoticchopshopheart  Set in between books, how the Amazon impacted Ethan.

Part 2

Rescue me - @perriewinklenerdie   2.3 Rewrite from Ethan’s POV.  

Resistance - @irisofpurple  Lana is mad at Ethan for leaving her hot and bothered.

Responsibility & Restraint - @ravenclawnerd  Ethan’s thoughts on Miami

Ride - @starrystarrytrouble Things get heated for Ethan on a car ride home.

Risky Business - @justanotherrookie  2.3 Rewrite of the Lamar scene.

Rookie - @mrsdr-ethan-ramsey When MC hears Ethan call another intern Rookie, she can’t stop herself from confronting him.

Roses - @lucy-268  He always bought her roses for their anniversary.

Ruined - @mrsdr-ethan-ramsey Maybe MC acted cool when she finally saw Ethan again after two months, but we all know she was dying with no contact.

RunAway - @utterlyinevitable  Becca left Bryce’s place before he woke up and overhears something she certainly shouldn’t have heard between Naveen and Ethan. Follows ‘Not A Choice’. Feat. Bryce x F!MC x Ethan

Sad, Beautiful, Tragic - @genevievemd  Every epic lovestory has an ending, and this is theirs. (Chapter 13 insert)

Safe - @therookie  Ethan grabs something and MC flinches because she thinks he’s going to hurt her because of her past relationship. TW: mentions of domestic abuse

Safe Harbour - @coffeeheartaddict2   Casey receives a message from her first college ex boyfriend that stirs up many not so nice emotions. TW: Mentions of emotional abuse, pregnancy scare

Saturn - @genevievemd  Nothing feels real without him.

Say It - @alj4890 🎭 Chris wants an important admission from Ethan. [1.15]

Scar - @ambraambrose  Ⓜ Ethan and MC discuss the story behind her scar. Set between the moment Harper caught Ethan and MC at the nurse station and Miami. TW: Stalking and Trauma

Scar Tissue - @the-pale-goddess Ⓜ Ethan takes a reckless gamble, hoping to win Tiffany back. Continuation of Contaminated aka Tiffany finds out about Ethan’s drunken encounter whilst in the Amazon AU - could also work as a one-shot.

Seeing Red - @liaromancewriter When Ethan receives a letter from Louise, he and Cassie have it out once and for all.

Seize Control - @chasingrobbie Why was Ethan still so adamant that they had to keep their distance if their wasn’t an ethical issue about them being together?

Selcouth - @monsoonblooms12  Set in Book 2, Pooja gets the recognition she deserves for solving Naveen Banerji’s case.

Settle Down - @utterlyinevitable MC hears that Ethan’s seeing someone else and goes ballistic. Feat. Ethan x Harper

Shades of Gray - @liaromancewriter  Only one woman can turn Ethan’s world upside down, and yet another who can ground him. [2.15]

Shades of Regret - @genevievemd  She tried to move on, but with her last hours alive slowing ticking away, the only person she wants is the man that broke her heart. (Bk 2, Ch 11 au - Ethan didn’t kiss Gen after the softball game and she’s starting to date Bryce) Feat. Bryce x F!MC x Ethan

Shinrin-Yoku - @anntoldst0ries  When life’s difficulties hit, Noelle navigates her way through them by turning to the nature.

Silent Fury - @utterlyinevitable   The memories of him haunt her at an old familiar place.

Silent Treatment - @heauxplesslydevoted  Naomi decides that if Ethan isn’t going to treat her like a valued member of the team, she’ll teach him a little lesson.

Silence after the storm - @perriewinklenerdie  Claire stops an upset patient from shooting people, putting herself in the line of his gun. That’s the beginning of a fierce argument between the her and Ethan.

Six Times the Flashlight Stood by Her - @arjaywrites   Dana has a lucky charm that’s stood by her through the best of times and the worst of times. These are the six moments in her life that stood out the most. TW: Mentions of death, cheating, internal acephobia

Sleeping Beauty - @genevievemd  Ethan struggles to survive after Gen slips into a coma. (Part 2 of Shades of Regret)

Someone I Can Trust - @choicesfanaf   After Naveen's untimely death, Ethan receives support from an intern. TW: Character death

Someday Maybe Me - @sleepmybeauty Ethan’s under the weather.  Feat. Ethan x Harper

Something better - @perriewinklenerdie  Claire’s Mother wants her to marry well, setting her up with what she believes is a great match. Claire doesn’t think so. And neither does Ethan.

Something Stupid - @eleanorbloom  At Harper’s farewell party, angsty drunk Ethan POV about MC. 

Sorrow - @lucy-268  Charley experiences loss and guilt. TW: car accident, miscarriage.

Sorry and Thank you - @perriewinklenerdie   1.13 Rewrite. They kiss outside the hospital and Ethan doesn’t care anymore. Then Claire tells him Landry has been sabotaging her.  

Soul Searching - @miss-smrxtiee  Eliana and Alan search for Ethan on the grounds of Edenbrook. But was Alan’s reason innocent?

Stay - @ethans-ramsey MC is leaving Edenbrook after receiving an offer of a fellowship in Seattle. She’s hoping for a goodbye from Ethan who grew distant after hearing the news.

“Stop worrying about you? Stop worrying about you?! I can barely stop thinking of you!” - @jamespotterthefirst  She’s drunk and Ethan can’t help but care about her.

Storm Closing In - @arcticlumineer They have collided a long time ago, but it is as if they’re discovering each other for the first time as they find a way to survive the tempest of their divergences.

Struggles - @potionsprefect  Despite how much he wants to, he finds it difficult to talk to her

Stuck (inspired by Ch 11) - @the-pale-goddess MC’s preparing for the visit from her parents after the traumatic events at Edenbrook.

Stuck In Gravity - @droppedmydamncroissant  After Ethan leaves for the Amazon, Calypso is left with nothing but a gallery of memories and the ruminating abilities of her scorned and yearning heart

Stuck in Reverse- @usuallyamazinglyaverage  A late night checkup on Naveen turns into a painful experience for both Ethan and Anna. Set after 1.11.

Stuck Together - @missmiimiie  Ethan gets trapped in a room with another grumpy doctor.

Stuck with you - @perriewinklenerdie  When Claire calls Ethan in the evening, he expects right about everything other than what she tells him. Feat. Protective!Ethan 

Supermassive Black Hole - @droppedmydamncroissant  Ethan finally understands the game Calypso has been playing all along, the goal of her movements and power plays: jealousy.

Sunrise - @starrystarrytrouble Ethan takes MC home after 2.11. 

Sunshine on a Rainy Day - @coffeeheartaddict2   Continuation of Darkest Hour. Casey and Ethan deal with their pasts and how it is impacting them now and their future.

Surrender- @usuallyamazinglyaverage  Anna and Sienna have a heart to heart. Takes place in 1.13. Feat. Sienna [Platonic]

Survivor’s Remorse -  @heauxplesslydevoted   Set after the events of 2.11, Naomi isn’t handling things as well as she thought she would.

Talk is Cheap - @cariantha  What would have been the outcome if Sawyer had discovered that she was pregnant whilst Ethan was in the Amazon?

Part 1 | Part 2

Tell Me - @a-crepusculo  Even after a successful day at work, Marchia couldn’t help but notice one thing.

Temptations - @justanotherrookie  2.2 Rewrite of dinner with the governor.

Tequila - @choicesarehard She’s drunk and he’s intoxicated by her. 

Thank You - @openheartfanfiction   Ethan didn't tell anyone (besides Naveen) that Jenner died and Claire goes over to his apartment worried about him. TW: Character Death

That Fast... - @aarisa-frost  Casey wants to enjoy this traditional festival but Ethan thinks it's stupid... This fic is based upon an Indian festival Karva Chauth.

That’s what love can do - @shewillreadyou  Carrick sends her flowers and Ethan saves her from their date. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x Tobias

The Anatomy of a Heist -  @takeharryandgo   It’s their most important mission yet. They break into MK to steal Landry’s signed textbook.

The Answer - @genevievemd  He considers MC’s ultimatum. 

The Beauty Inside - @headoverheelsforramsey  Ethan feels bad for sharing his burden with Meera. [1.8]

The Butterfly Effect - @monsoonblooms12  The Journey from where it all began to where they are now. From a 2-minute power nap to a Miami kiss, Pooja and Ethan have come a long way.

The choice is yours + bonus ending - @perriewinklenerdie   In one moment, his whole world falls apart. He loses everything, and he doesn’t know how to cope with it all. + bonus ending containing a more light ending to the very dark story. TW: death to mother and unborn child.

The Delivery -  @heauxplesslydevoted  Naomi goes into labor in unexpected circumstances. TW: Pregnancy and childbirth.

The Empty Space Between Us - @kittykatchoices Ethan and MC find that even the distance they’ve put between one another still isn’t enough. TW: alcoholism.   

The Exception - @genevievemd  Ethan finds out that MC kissed Bryce at the music festival and is heartbroken at the thought that she’s moving on. [2.5 Rewrite]

The Fall - @heauxplesslydevoted  Naomi has huge news to give Ethan, but things don’t always go as planned. TW: Pregnancy. Feat. Bestie Bryce

The Familiar Face - @potionsprefect  The past has a nasty way of coming back to haunt you and Victoria must learn to deal with it

The fifth call - @alwaysmychoices After disaster strikes Boston and Edenbrook, MC just wants to get Ethan on the phone…

The Heart Wants - @genevievemd   After going on a terrible blind date, Ethan agrees to meet up with Genevieve. But it’s harder than they both imagined.

The Journey - @jerzwriter  Kaycee reflects on how life turned out exactly as she imagined it and how it didn't when she and Ethan dropped their daughter off at college for the first time.

The least I could do - @perriewinklenerdie  1.14 Rewrite from Ethan’s POV.

Part 1  |   Part 2

The Love of His Life - @lem-20  Who (or what) is the love of Ethan Ramsey’s life? This covers some of the time jump and Ethan’s thoughts when he is alone in the atrium in 2.19. 

The Open Door - @queenbirbs 👻 Bryce invites MC, Sienna, and Aurora on a tour of a haunted estate on the night before Halloween. What could go wrong? [Halloween fic] Feat. The Gang

The Other Side - @blazerina Before starting on the Diagnostics Team, MC  struggles as she remembers what it was like to be with Ethan.

The Speed of Light - @rookie-ramsey  MC’s condition takes a turn for the worse. Ethan realizes just how fast time flies when someone you love is close to dying. 2.11 Rewrite.

The Starting Line - @cariantha  Not able to watch her walk away, Ethan chases after Sawyer following their “reset” conversation in the beer garden. [2.1]

The Stroke of Midnight - @schnitzelbutterfingers 🌟 How would they get their New Year’s kiss if there are obstacles in their way?

The Talk - @utterlyinevitable  Becca and Ethan talk about what that kiss outside his apartment means. [2.18]

The Therapist - @bex-la-get  Natalie and Ethan seek guidance from a therapist.

The Ultimatum - @genevievemd  MC thinks Ethan doesn’t see them as in a relationship. Takes place the night of Edenbrook closing, before we see Leland outside our apartment.

The Visiting of Mrs Pearce - @arjaywrites   Dana had long closed the chapter to her unmentioned childhood. However time has different plans, when her mother visits her after twelve years of radio silence. TW: Emotional Abuse

The Waiting Game - @rookie-ramsey  They’re in a car accident. TW: Near-death experience.

There’s No Way - @utterlyinevitable Takes place in OH2 when Ethan brings MC on their first home visit for the Stevenson case aka their first case together after Ethan came out of hiding.

These Arms - @shewillreadyou  TW: Mentions of sexual assault and violence

They Gave Today for Their Tomorrow - @potionsprefect  Ethan goes to visit Danny and Bobby’s bodies in the morgue.

This Is Me Trying - @drariellevalentine  MC is unconscious in Ethan’s arms. Takes place in 2.5.

Part 2

To-Do List - @gryffindordaughterofathena She loves being prepared and he loves her.

To Forget A Woman - @takeharryandgo  His first free night in Brazil, Ethan attempts to drown thoughts of a certain intern in a bottle of scotch.

To Have and to Hurt - @danijimenezv  How MC finally reacts to the bs PB has been forcing on us, and the reason behind Tobias’s actions. Feat. Tobias

To Us, Officially - @shewillreadyou  She and Ethan aren’t hiding anymore but she’s still seeing Raf. She is spending her evening with the crew and it suddenly take an unexpected turn. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x Rafael

To Weather a Storm - @jerzwriter  Ethan and Casey made it official after her brush with death, but since that time, his obsessive behavior has become a growing concern. Can Casey help him move forward? TW: Anxiety; PTSD; Abandonment

Tolerate It - @gryffindordaughterofathena  Left alone to her thoughts Diana rethinks her relationship with Ethan in the course of time.

Tolerate It - @genevievemd  Their growing distance comes to a head.

Too Much To Ask - @jamespotterthefirst   Drunk and hurt, she leaves him a voicemail while he’s in the Amazon.

Touch - @genevievemd  In 2.20, after Ethan goes to Leland’s office. Basically just MC having a sort of ptsd/anxiety attack and going to Ethan for help and comfort.

Touch Me - @perriewinklenerdie  2.19 rewrite. Ethan and MC actively reach out to feel each other’s touch after what happened to Leland and Caroline.

Tough Love - @aworldoffandoms MC does the unthinkable in her line of work and she has to face Ethan Ramsey, not as her lover, but as her boss. How will he react?

Truly. Madly. Deeply. -  @crystalwillow MC and the gang cheer Ethan up when Jenner dies.

Truly Sorry - @miss-smrxtiee  Eliana and Ethan get in a heated argument that causes uncertainty to grow in their relationships. How will Ethan make it up to her?

Two Days - @writinghereandthere MC finds out about Ethan’s date and is having trouble processing the idea that their relationship really is over.

Two Missives One Heart - @gryffindordaughterofathena  Ethan and Diana write each other a letter which was never meant to be delivered during their two months away from each other.

Two of Hearts - @courtesanofedenbrook Edenbrook’s Diagnostics Team is handed an extremely rare case. MC assists and, turns out, her and Dr. Ethan Ramsey have history.

[jynzandtonic]

MEET THE BOYS: ADAM SACKLER

It’s been a few years since he split with his old friend group, his exes. Adam? Adam’s grown the fuck up. Committing himself to acting and producing and actually fucking taking care of himself was a wake up call, and a brutal one at that. He’s sober, and not tenuously so in the least. He’s been through therapy, and you know what? It was fuckin’ cool. The narcissistic energy of his early twenties propelled him into plenty of interesting and exciting bullshit, but as time went on, he realized it just wasn’t sustainable when he wanted to show up for things: theater, healthy relationships, himself.

And after all that time feeling vapid and lonely and self-absorbed and shitty and finally deciding to face it all, head-on, you showed up. Just like a little thank you gift from the universe, you showed up. You got his scripts. You got his passions. You got him. From the moment you first met, he knew he wanted to show up for you.

Sure, he’s still a total fucking weirdo, and you’re still not sure how a person could develop so many bizarre idiosyncrasies. Sometimes you joke about not being able to take him out in public, but the sex is so fucking good you wouldn’t mind staying in forever. When it comes down to it, you’re kind of a weirdo, too... and Adam loves you exactly the way you are.

Snaccs: (these are my lil’ hcs)

Sackler’s always been a kinky little shit, but he never fully realized just how bad he was at talking about sex until he saw a good kink-positive therapist. ‘Negotiations’ wasn’t a word in his sexual vocabulary before, but now that it is? Hooooo boy. Things have never been, uh, more satisfying for him. You two always discuss before you try something new, and you try a LOT.

The first time he found your collection of toys tucked away in your nightstand, he wasn’t sure whether to propose on the spot, or tie you up and use them all on you one by one. You caught him snooping before he could decide, and surprised him by making him sit on his hands and watch you cum again and again with your favorites while he whimpered and begged you to let him stroke his own cock. You didn’t.

If Adam can give it, Adam can take it. You’re finding that out more and more, and he is, too. Spankings, orders, orgasm denial, debasement, rough play... it’s all fair game. It’s hilarious that he though he was a dom before he met you—he’s the sweetest little switch. You’ll use all of your toys on him eventually. Eventually.

Your bedroom soundtrack: I Luv It — DRAM feat. Sunny & Gabe

[achingforthestars]

some things i liked and did not like about the rise of skywalker ***spoilers***

now having seen it and having had the time to sit and talk and collect my thoughts, i have a list of the things i didn’t enjoy and, amongst all this negativity, the things i did. 

contains spoilers of course!

things i did not enjoy:

finding out about palpatine off-screen

so stupid! this was one of the things i disliked the most because of what a cheap, lazy writing choice it was. i wanted to see the characters have to put it together, have to work for it and then when facing palpatine, have it be on their terms instead of his? instead we get him announcing his presence and kylo meeting him in the first 3 minutes. 

treatment of characters

i made a post about this. just so much wrong, so many deserved better, most of all rose, rey and ben. a lot of the characters were treated as afterthoughts. 

implied finn having feelings for rey

dumb. overdone. tired.

knights of ren

felt cheap and underused. learned nothing about them, it was something i was waiting 3 movies for and the final chance to show them was wasted. 

the resistance is back to perfect! 

i understand that this was due to the timeskip, which i guess was necessary, but i felt that it was kind of cheap to not show any sort of struggle. a year has passed and BAM they’re right where they were in TFA. the losses faced in TLJ very much felt erased. 

the pacing

awful. just awful. things felt too rushed or too slow pretty much through the entire movie. 

the visuals

much less well-done than TLJ. the use of colour and light was much weaker in my opinion, the locations more generic, and the imagery lacking. that said, palpatine’s lair was so fittingly creepy, and the reylo moment on kijimi/kylo’s ship with the black and white juxtaposition - those were nice. 

irrelevant or convenient plot elements

zorii bliss was not a necessary character. chewie was conveniently on another transport. d-0, while super cute and funny, was also just a deus ex machina. hux being a spy - could have been entirely removed but oh, finn and poe need to get off the ship somehow. rey’s return to ahch-to was rushed, her interactions with luke could have been on any other planet. she did not need to pilot luke’s x-wing specifically but they forced it. lando - lando was basically a consolation prize for chewie with little relevance. pryde literally could have been replaced with hux and made for a more interesting narrative. 

snoke clones

what the fuck was that?

the fleet

somehow the entirety of the fleet was magically stored, 100% operational and with fully functioning crew, under the crust of some random planet? and every single one of those ships has planet-destroying capabilities? 

the other “fleet”

where the fuck were these allies in TLJ, huh? i get that it’s the last stand and maybe more people showed up because of that but damn. 

leia’s absence was felt

i understand this was not in the control of the creators but truly, i felt like there was a gaping hole where leia should have been. 

the Trio

i enjoyed their banter but it felt inconsistent through the movie. rey and poe didn’t get along one minute, the next they’re fine. if this had been introduced and pushed in previous films, it would have made more sense and felt less hollow. as it stands, it felt like a forced attempt to call back the OT vibes that just fell flat.

rey palpatine

ugh. let’s reduce strength to a bloodline and in the process ignore what was set up in the last movie. yay! also, palpatine fucked someone at some point and that is utterly disgusting. 

rey skywalker

felt forced. she did not need to take the skywalker name.

kylo’s transition to ben.

before anyone jumps on me, i want to clarify that specifically i am referring to the speed of his transition from ruthless supreme leader to full on ben. i loved his redemption, i just wish i could have seen him do it more gradually and with a bit more struggle? he just goes from “i will find you rey and turn you dark like me” to “i am ben solo” so quickly that i found it a bit jarring? 

palpatine’s constantly changing plans. 

kill rey, no wait, take the throne rey, no wait, let me kill you both and take the throne myself. pick one you crusty fuck. 

force dyad

honestly why establish it if you’re going to ignore it in about 2 seconds?

inadequate expression of star wars main themes

the ideas of hope, of redemption, of love and of family - all central to star wars, and none properly delivered on. 

ben’s death. 

heartbreaking. he deserved love and happiness and a life. that’s all i can say about that. however, in a transition to things i liked: if he had to die, i’m really pleased that it was with an act of love. he chose to make a sacrifice, the ultimate sacrifice, for his soulmate. i don’t like that he had to die, but i can find peace in the way it happened - on his terms, on the light side, in the arms of the woman he loved.

things i did enjoy (a lot actually):

babu frik

was so fucking funny. that is all. 

c-3po.

also surprisingly funny for a droid i’m usually annoyed by?

jannah

i surprisingly really loved her character. i thought she might be an addition like zorii bliss, but i enjoyed naomi ackie’s acting a lot. she felt much more genuine. however i do think there was a missed opportunity in working on her and finn’s shared background as ex-stromtroopers.

force healing abilities

i thought were super cool! i really liked healing the serpent, it was a nice subversion of the expectation to be trapped and outrunning a monster through a labyrinth of corridors. loved how when rey healed kylo, she healed his scar too. just also it’s always nice to see new things being done with the force.

force fighting. 

it was lovely to see force techniques being used in the lightsaber battles (as compared, for instance, to the throne room fight of TLJ); and also to see force-aided physical feats like jumps that don’t look like naruto-style ninja backflips. definitely felt more real.

poe’s moment in the x-wing

taking in the damage and destruction all around him. i felt the weight he was feeling in that moment.

rey picking herself off the ground

after palpatine drains her and kylo’s life force. i loved her moment of peace and centering, gathering the strength to do what comes next. while i didn’t love the voices of the previous jedi, it made for a lovely sequence of “i’m not done with you yet” and showcases her strength.

the moment with ben and han

gorgeous scene echoing han and ben’s last interaction in TFA. just an amazing callback with such different emotion and the final turning of ben back to the light. i really loved this bit.

adam driver’s acting performance in general.

absolutely the best, the most amazing, performance of the film. if nothing else, the switch from kylo to ben, despite having zero dialogue, should speak for itself. he managed to convey a completely different personality through his mannerisms, physicality and visuals alone. oh, and the death/ressurrection scene! the absolute desperation with which he crawls to the woman he loves. the infinite depth of emotion adam manages to transmit through only his eyes and his facial expressiveness. he deserves an oscar nomination for this in my opinion. 

reylo kiss

i don’t even need to explain this. the smile. the pure happiness, the tender touch, the moment of just love and joy and letting themselves be together, finally. i could not have asked for more of a beautiful first kiss. we’re ignoring what comes after. 

overall impression

tros fell flat. i lived for ben’s redemption and reylo, but this was not enough to make up for the mistreatment of most of the characters, the poorly coordinated and frankly rushed structure, and most importantly, the failure to deliver on its themes of family and hope. i felt like it tried to do too much and achieved too little. 

[searchingwardrobes]

Far Away

Happy birthday to the keeper of fandom birthdays herself: @cat-sophia ! This entire series wouldn’t have happened without her and her massive birthday project. You deserve all the good things, my dear. I apologize that I didn’t have time to make you a picset for this, but I have to leave for the airport in half an hour and didn’t want to miss your big day!

Summary: She didn’t cry, Tears were incredibly rare in Emma’s life. She did, however, move closer to him. Killian lifted his arms and wrapped them around her. She was enveloped by warmth and the scent of him - rum and the salty tang of the ocean. She buried her face in his shoulder and the scent of leather was added to the mix. She felt tears sting the corners of her eyes, but she held them back. A canon divergence for New York City Serenade in which the hug stayed in and things heat up from there. Based on the song by Nickelback.

Rating: High T

Words: 3,000 and some change

Also on Ao3 and part of my Fandom Birthday Playlist

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Cause you know you know, you know / That I love you, I have loved you all along, and I miss you / Been far away for far too long / I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go / Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

“Hook,” Emma breathed, her eyes wide as the vial of potion went lax in her hand.

“Did you miss me?” he teased with that familiar tilt of his head and cocky smile.

Moments ago, memories had washed over Emma like a flood. Now she was no longer the person she was mere seconds ago. Shock and fear overwhelmed her in a crashing wave. Killian’s face morphed from flirting to one of alarm. He took a step towards her, somewhat hesitantly. He searched her eyes, and the emotions she saw in those ocean blue depths broke her.

She didn’t cry, Tears were incredibly rare in Emma’s life. She did, however, move closer to him. Killian lifted his arms and wrapped them around her. She was enveloped by warmth and the scent of him - rum and the salty tang of the ocean. She buried her face in his shoulder and the scent of leather was added to the mix. She felt tears sting the corners of her eyes, but she held them back.

Killian’s chin rubbed at the top of her head and his hand rubbed her back in gentle circles. Her own arms were curled against her chest. An errant thought ran through her mind: she fit perfectly against him. She pushed that impression stubbornly away.

“What can I do?” he whispered. “What do you need, Emma?”

Her breath caught in her throat, and she squeezed her eyes tight. His flirting she could deal with, but this tender sincerity? That threatened to wreck her. She took a step back, and he immediately released her. Her cheeks were warm and she couldn’t bear to look into his eyes.

“I don’t know . . . I’m just . . . so confused.” She finally lifted her gaze to his. “Why are you here? How are you are here?”

Killian glanced around the busy New York street. “Maybe we should move this conversation somewhere more private?”

Emma nodded. “Come on, let’s go back to my place.” She turned, tilting her head for him to follow.

“Why Swan, if physical comfort of a more intimate kind is what you desire, just say so.”

Emma rolled her eyes as his swagger returned. He even popped the “t” on “intimate,” and his tongue made a quick appearance. She added a glare to her eye roll for good measure, but when she turned to head down the sidewalk, she couldn’t help the smile that lit her face.

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“I came back for you.”

There was that damn sincerity again. Emma knocked back another swallow of rum to cover up how flustered he made her. He had always shaken her cool demeanor, even way back on that damn beanstalk. Not even Neal had tilted her equilibrium in quite that way. Her chest tightened at the thought of her ex. All of this meant he might be back in her life, and how was she supposed to explain that to Henry? She groaned and rose from the chair. She paced in agitation for a minute or two before stopping before the window and pressing her forehead to the cool glass. She felt Killian approach behind her. How did he manage to radiate such heat? Was it all that leather?

“These windows were what sold me on this apartment,” Emma said.

“It is quite a spectacular view.”

Emma blinked, looking out at the skyline without really seeing it. “We thought our place in

Boston went up in flames leaving us with nothing but the clothes on our backs.”

“Regina’s false memories - I know.”

“But no spell can get you an apartment like this - not in New York.”

“It must have been very difficult for you,” Killian said gently, stepping closer. His chest was just a hair’s breadth from her back.

“My wallet was in the Bug, thank God. We got a tiny, dingy room in one of those extended stay hotels. It was a hell of a week, let me tell you, but I guess fate . . . “ she released a long breath. “We met Diane at a coffee shop. This is her apartment. She worked at the same PI place I’m at now and was just about to leave for a long term assignment in Canada.”

“I’m glad you and Henry found a home so quickly.” Killian was so close now, his breath rustled her hair.

“But it isn’t home, is it? It never was.”

Killian’s hand and hook rested on her shoulders. “I’m sorry for having to rip all this away from you. Less than an hour ago, your life was simple. I guess I didn’t stop to think -”

“No.” Emma turned to face him. Her breath hitched at how close he was, and she swallowed nervously as her heart hammered in her chest. “I mean, don’t apologize. You got a message, and you had to do the right thing.”

His face was gentle and tender as he lifted his hand to tuck a wayward strand of her hair behind her ear. Emma’s pulse hammered.

“I was crazy with worry. Out of my mind, actually.”

“Why?”

“I thought you might be in danger. I couldn’t forgive myself if harm came to you and your boy when I could have stopped it.”

Time seemed to slow down as heat surged from the top of Emma’s head to the tips of her toes. She raised her hand to trace Killian’s jaw with her fingertips. His eyes fell shut with obvious pleasure at her touch.

“Killian,” she whispered.

His eyes flew open, awe on his face. “What did you call me?”

“Killian,” she repeated. Her eyes darted from his eyes to his lips and back again. She took a tiny step forward, and her nose brushed his. “Remember when I said that kiss was a one-time thing?”

Emma watched his adam’s apple as he swallowed. Her hand slid down to splay over his chest, and she could feel the steady beat of his heart.

“Aye, I remember,” he said thickly.

“I lied.”

She slid her fingers into the hair at the nape of his neck and pulled his face to hers. She brushed her lips against his teasingly before pressing closer. Killian wrapped her in his arms, but unlike his tender touch in the street earlier, this embrace was sensual and possessive. And unlike Neverland, this kiss was slow and unhurried, thorough and complete. His tongue drank her in languidly, and a moan sounded in the back of his throat. Emma let out a sensual sigh as she broke her lips away from his and tipped her head back. He trailed his tongue across her jaw, and Emma whimpered.

“Say it again, Emma,” he breathed against her pulse point, “say my name.”

“Killian,” she gasped, “oh, God!”

He was sucking at her neck, which was a pretty remarkable feat considering she was wearing a turtleneck. A fashion choice she was really regretting right now. Killian’s hand slipped up the back of her shirt, leaving sparks racing up and down her spine. She was just about to pull the damn shirt off completely, when there was a knock at the door.

“Who’s that?” Killian asked, shifting from aroused to alarmed in seconds flat - pirate! - while Emma was completely disoriented.

Then realization slammed into her. “Shit, that’s Walsh.”

Killian’s eyes narrowed. “Want me to get rid of him?”

A year and a half ago, Emma would have thought he meant that literally. Now, she found his protectiveness sweet. Regret and shame also gripped her. She hadn’t given Walsh a second of her thoughts since she took that potion. Had she really been considering his proposal just that morning? Pity for the man swept over her.

“No. My memories may have been a lie, but the eight months I spent with him weren’t.”

She saw the hurt flicker across Killian’s face, and while she was beyond confused by everything that had happened in the last hour, one thing was now certain - Killian Jones would move heaven and earth for her and Henry. She stepped close to him again, and cupped his face in her hands.

“Hey,” she said, caressing his cheeks with her thumb, “I owe him a goodbye. That’s all I’m saying.”

The smile he gave her was tentative, so she brushed a kiss to his lips. Then she turned to have a conversation that she didn’t really want to have. Walsh had been a pretty good boyfriend and was a decent guy. She hated to break his heart, but now that Killian was here, she could see how lacking her relationship with Walsh had been. It had been safe and comfortable, and in some ways she loved him. But her feelings for Walsh were like a tiny flicker compared to the inferno that Killian ignited in her. She wasn’t sure yet what Killian was to her, but she certainly couldn’t string Walsh along. Nor could she involve him in what she now knew was her insane and dangerous life.

Emma took a deep breath and flung the door open. Walsh’s face broke into a hopeful smile as he stepped forward to kiss her hello. At the last moment, Emma turned her cheek, and Walsh frowned.

“Walsh, we need to talk.”

He smiled again. “Yeah, I know, that’s why I’m here for dinner.” He glanced over her shoulder. “Are you going to let me in?”

Emma gnawed at her lower lip. “I don’t think that’s a good idea, and dinner’s off. I’m sorry.”

As usual, Walsh kept the casual grin on his face. “What’s going on?”

“I have my answer, Walsh. I’m sorry, but I can’t marry you.”

“Why not? I told you I won’t push you to set a date. I mean we love each other!”

Emma let out a sigh. “The last eight months have been great, they really have, but someone from my past showed up - “

“An ex?”

“No! Nothing like that.” Emma swallowed nervously thinking of the passionate kisses Walsh had just interrupted, but at least she wasn’t lying, technically.

“What then?”

“I need to go back home, Walsh, and I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. I’m not good for you, trust me.”

Walsh’s eyes narrowed in a way she’d never seen before. “Home? I thought you had no home?”

“Well, I -”

Walsh punched his fist into the doorframe just above Emma’s head, and she jumped. “You just had to drink that potion, didn’t you?”

“What?”

“Emma,” Killian’s voice came from behind her, and it held support for Emma and a warning for Walsh at the same time. She was relieved to hear it as she reeled at Walsh’s words, yet the next thing out of his mouth was even worse.

“The witch warned me this guy might come for you.”

Emma sucked in a shocked breath. “Who are you?”

Everything after that happened so fast, Emma’s mind spun. Walsh’s eyes turned an eerie red just as Killian stepped between him and Emma, cutlass drawn. Walsh let out an animalistic shriek as he lunged for Killian, and Emma screamed to see the man she’d dated for the past eight months transform into a hideous monkey with wings. Killian’s cutlass went sliding across the floor, and Emma snatched it up. Walsh - the monkey? - raised a clawed hand to strike at Killian, but before he could, Emma kicked him in the chest, sending him flying out into the hallway. Killian scrambled to his feet, and Emma tossed him his cutlass as she grabbed her pistol from the holster hanging on the coat rack. She normally locked it up in a safe, but with Henry gone and her mind in turmoil from the pictures she’d developed, she had hurriedly hung it there earlier, thank God.

The two of them dashed into the hallway, where the monkey (she refused to refer to it as Walsh anymore) hunched, its wings outspread. It didn’t see Emma’s gun until it was too late, but just as Emma pulled the trigger, she shifted her aim. The bullet grazed the monkey in the shoulder, and he howled in pain. He flung himself toward Emma and Killian, bowling them over and half running, half flying toward the window at the end of the hall. The monkey barrelled through the glass and flung itself into the sky. Emma and Killian raced after it, but all they saw was a glittery cloud of magic on the pavement below.

“I couldn’t do it,” Emma panted, adrenaline still coursing through her veins, “I couldn’t kill him.”

“I know,” Killian said gently, gathering her in his arms.

Emma turned her face into his chest as sobs finally overtook her.

I wanted, I wanted you to stay /'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say / That I love you, I have loved you all along / And I forgive you, / for being away for far too long / So keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving / Hold on to me and never let me go / Keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore

“I was never safe.”

Emma fiddled with Killian’s hook as he ran his fingers through her hair. His long leather coat was tossed over the kitchen chair, his boots lined up neatly in the hall by the door. He was leaning back against her couch, and she was leaning against his chest, his arm wrapped around her with his hook resting against her stomach. His legs were spread out on either side of her. He was wearing grey wool socks. Somehow she’d never considered that Captain Hook would wear socks.

“You’re safe now,” he whispered against her hair.

“For how long? You came to find me because another curse was coming for my family, and all this time I was dating. . . I was dating . . . “ she was thinking the word monkey but couldn’t say it out loud. I was dating a monkey! Suddenly, a chuckle shook her body, then another. Soon her body was shaking with silent laughter.

“Emma, love,” Killian said in alarm, “are you crying?”

“No,” Emma gasped out, though tears were beginning to roll down her face, “I’m laughing.” She couldn’t speak for a few minutes as the laughter shook her frame. She pushed away from Killian and sat cross-legged in the middle of the sofa while he looked at her in bewilderment.

“Come on,” she gasped, smacking him in the chest, “you know you want to laugh too. I . . . I almost . . . m- mar-” she doubled over in hysterics, and Killian’s mouth twitched and his eyes sparkled.

“He proposed that night? The monkey actually proposed?”

“Yes!”

God, she must look insane, but she chanced a glance at Killian, and he was laughing now, too. She realized that she had never seen him smile like that, or ever really laugh. It was a wonderful look on him, with dimples creasing his cheeks and crow’s feet crinkling around his eyes. She fell against his chest again, this time wetting it with tears of laughter. His arms went around her again as both their bodies shook. Finally, the mixture of laughter and tears were spent and Emma sighed in his embrace. His hand came back up to tangle in her hair.

“I’m sorry Em-”

She lifted up quickly on her elbows and pressed a finger to his lips. “Don’t, remember? None of this is your fault.”

They were so close again, this time with their bodies pressed against one another, and their gazes turned heated. Killian was the one who moved first this time, surging forward to claim her lips. Emma kissed him back with equal fervor, yanking him up and across the couch so their positions were switched and he was on top of her. His hand slipped beneath the fabric of her turtleneck again, his calloused fingers warm against her stomach.

“I hate this shirt,” she mumbled as she broke away from him just long enough to pull it over her head and toss it aside.

His eyes darkened with desire as he gazed at her in just her lacy black bra, and Emma yanked him back down to her again to resume their kisses. This time, there was plenty of exposed skin for him to kiss, and she breathed out his name multiple times without him having to ask.

*******************************************************

“How do you feel now?”

Emma grinned at Killian’s question, then shivered as he trailed kisses across her bare shoulder. She turned in his arms, tracing the tattoos that marked each bicep, letting her fingers trail down to the end of his arms. He flinched slightly as she gently caressed the puckered flesh of his stump, then gave him an adoring smile as she pressed it between her breasts. She shifted closer to him, nuzzling his neck with her nose.

“Very . . . satisfied,” she murmured, nipping at one of his elfin earlobes.

“A man always wants to satisfy his lady,” Killian teased as he gave her bare hip a playful pinch.

Emma giggled, a sound that was almost foreign to her own ears. She pressed her lips to his jaw bone, then his chin, then she pulled back so she could see his eyes. They seemed lighter, but that may have only been in contrast to the desire that had darkened them to cobalt earlier. She reached up to trace the scar on his cheek, and he smiled serenely. They stayed like that, content to just drink one another in.

“What did you mean when you said good?” Killian finally asked, voice soft and low. “At the town line a year ago.”

He needn’t have clarified, Emma knew exactly what he was referring to. She shrugged.

“You said you’d think of me every day, and . . . I don’t know, I liked the thought of it.” She frowned. “I know that’s selfish.”

“Well,” he said, tucking a lock of hair behind her ear, “you have a right to be selfish every now and then. You rarely put yourself first, and frankly, I’d like to see that change.”

Emma’s breath caught in her throat. Anyone putting her first was so rare, it was difficult to accept.

“Did you?” she asked him. “Think of me every day?”

“Every single day.”

They had so much to figure out. They would have to travel to Storybrooke tomorrow, and find some way to explain all this to Henry. When they got there, most likely everyone would have false memories again, and there was a witch, apparently.

But for now, Emma would do as Killian suggested, and be selfish for once. She would, for once in her life, let someone comfort her and take care of her. Because somehow, some way, she knew that Killian Jones wasn’t going anywhere.

On my knees, I'll ask last chance for one last dance / 'Cause with you, I'd withstand / All of hell to hold your hand / I'd give it all I'd give for us / Give anything, but I won't give up / Cause you know, you know, you know / I love you, I have loved you all along and I missed you / Been far away for far too long

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Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker (2019) Review

A long, long time ago in a galaxy far, far away there was Star Wars. Then Disney happened.

Plot: The surviving Resistance faces the First Order once more as Rey, Finn and Poe Dameron's journey continues. With the power and knowledge of generations behind them, the final battle commences.

The Rise of Skywalker brings the new Disney Star Wars trilogy to a close whilst also setting out to be the grand finale to the entire Skywalker saga. That’s a big feat to conquer, and does this movie succeed? To put it in post-haste words, this movie will split up audiences. Some will love it, some will definitely hate it, and some, such as I, will find many problems but will enjoy it for what it is. As a throwaway blockbuster with a load of action and cool moments in time for Christmas for families to enjoy whilst shoving popcorn in their faces, this film perfectly suffices. However, if you take in the bigger picture with this being a Star Wars film and how it fits into the franchise timeline, the movie is a mess. It’s all over the place (or should I say galaxy?). There is a lack of a consistent narrative as well as ignoring the Star Wars lore set by previous films as well as a bunch of random mumbo jumbo that happens which makes the whole thing disappointing. 

There is a lot of fan service, and sometimes it does work, but most of the time it feels forced and shoe-horned in. Also, this film emphasizes how much Disney lacked a grand plan for this new trilogy. Feels like they kind of just made up everything as they went along, unlike having an actual plan for the endgame from the beginning. Ironically, Disney’s other endgame this year proved to have had a well-structured plan with Avengers: Endgame, and that is why that movie, for the most part, works. In the case of this new Star Wars trilogy, it seems like the folks at Disney simply tried to constantly appease to fans whilst forgetting to actually give us a consistent and well thought out story. With The Force Awakens, people complained it was too similar to A New Hope. So with The Last Jedi, director Rian Johnson tried to do something different with the franchise, by taking it in a new direction, so then audiences complained about the fact that that movie strayed away from the familiar (though some of the complaints are indeed well-founded). So with The Rise of Skywalker Disney again decided to focus on simply filling the needs of the fans rather than just tell a story they should’ve told, which causes The Rise of Skywalker to be a mix of the familiar with huge nostalgic factor with certain cameos and scenes simply being there for the sake of “oh look, that’s from that other Star Wars movie I know and love, wow, how happy does that make me!!” type of spiel, whilst also trying to fix the choices made by The Last Jedi and also trying to bring a somewhat satisfying conclusion to its characters, the latter of which it definitely does not succeed in my opinion. The whole thing is all over the place. Look, I apologize for my vagueness in this review, but with Star Wars being Star Wars, one does not simply go and spoil Star Wars. You do not need my review as a confirmation to go or not to go see Star Wars. Its Star Wars! You’re going to go see Star Wars regardless of the opinion of others. Because Star Wars, capiche! 

Alright, so some quick thoughts that are spoiler-free. The return of Emperor Palpatine doesn’t do much. He’s basically just a stand-in villain due to Snoke’s awkward demise in the last film. And if you’re looking to find out how Palps survived that death of his in The Return of the Jedi, good luck, this film doesn’t even try to explain that. Why? Because books. Disney wants you to read the books that they publish which fill in the plot gaps that the movies do not cover. And why’s that? Because moneeeeeyyy! Next, what was it with all the fake-out deaths? I’m not even talking about Palpatine’s return, but many characters within this movie supposedly die only to be brought back with ease minutes after their suggested end. What was the point of that? Not a clue. Moving on, the presence of Princess Leia in this movie is done by using unused archived footage from The Force Awakens for the unfortunate reason that Carrie Fisher, unfortunately, passed away, and yes, the Carrie Fisher shots are very obviously added to scenes in the film through visual effects, and it does look awkward, but I respect the effort that was put into it by the producers and crew in light of the fact what they had to work with. Billy Dee Williams returns as Lando Calrissian and just kind of hangs out. Honestly, he was included simply to include a character from the original trilogy. He doesn’t get to do much in this film. Daisy Ridley and Adam Driver do as best as they can with the roles of Rey and Kylo Ren, but the fact that their characters are so underwritten limits them from doing much. Also, Rey in this movie is ridiculously overpowered, to the extent that most of her actions in this movie are a whole load of deus ex machina. Visually this film is not as striking as The Last Jedi. Rian Johnson just has a more exciting flare for exciting visual shots compared to JJ Abrams, however, the movie still looks and feels glossy and well-made. John Williams returns to once again score the film, and faulting him and his work here would be a work of a Sith so I’ll truly admit as always his music was on point. There are also many jokers and one-liners used and to be honest, most of them missed for me. The humour really felt forced in this one, more so than in The Force Awakens. The actual ending of the film leaves you feeling a bit ‘meh’. It’s sort of predictable and you can tell where the movie will go. Also, expect some nice little cameos in the movie, one of which I predicted and felt so proud of myself for calling it. Though I will not reveal what cameo this is. See for yourself. 

Finalizing my thoughts, I feel like The Rise of Skywalker will be a cause for constant debate amongst critics, fans and general audiences. It literally depends on what tickles your pickle. I know people who really liked this film, some not so much. This is definitely a divisive movie, and I’m stuck somewhere in the middle. I enjoyed my time at the cinema with this one, but at the end of the day I cannot ignore the messiness of the whole thing.

Overall score: 5/10

[anothercolourmagines]

As D&D Classes and Races

This is pretty much the result of me binge-watching outsidexbox’s D&D sessions which if you haven’t yet checked out, do it immediately. Trust me you won’t regret it. :)

The context here is that the Reader is the DM, with the characters picking their classes and races and forming several groups. This was quite enjoyable to write so I might add more information in future, if you guys find it interesting as well.

Allen Jones: Barbarian, Half-Orc. His method of picking a character is rather simple: find the biggest, strongest and most intimidating combination he can play as and pick that. The choice is quite a good one and he has a lot of fun with the rage feature as well, but it often ends up with him employing a ‘shoot first, ask questions later’ sort of tactic which puts him at odds with Oliver and Matt. Definitely the type to ask for preferential treatement, but doesn’t do much except whine when he is categorically denied. 

Matt Williams: Ranger, Half-Elf. He didn’t really understand the concept at first and initially wanted to play a Half-Orc Barbarian as well until Allen called him an uncreative asshole. After having the classes and races explained to him again he decides to go with Ranger, and at Oliver’s suggestion be a Half-Elf. Allen makes fun of him for picking it at first until he finds out the Ranger can have beast companions at higher levels. 

Oliver Kirkland: Druid, Halfling. Since he’s always eager to have everyone together and getting along he jumps at the idea of playing a tabletop rpg (despite not being entirely sure what the term implies). Since he’s rather taken with gardening he decides on his character rather easily and picks the race relatively easy as well thinking it sounds fun. He is often the one that suggests the party look for the most peaceful solution and, just like in real life, often has to mediate Allen’s and Matt’s arguments. 

Louis Bonnefoy: Warlock, Tiefling. Originally, he had no interest at all in trying the game but after Oliver convinced him (with the promise of booze) he decided to give it a go. He claims that he doesn’t care what class he plays so at Oliver’s suggestion he goes for the warlock, but picks the race on his own. He generally goes along with whoever proposes the easiest solution to the problem they face, regardless of whether it is moral or immoral. 

Viktor Braginsky: Wizard, Human. Much like Louis, he also had to be dragged into doing this by someone else. In this case it was Anya who suggested it would be a great way for the siblings to spent time together and do something fun as well. He generally prefers talking out the problem with their foes, which often clashes with Katya’s playing style leading to some very chaotic sessions.

Zao Wang: Rogue, Elf. He insists on playing a cool and suave character, akin to the roguish elven assassin of Dragon Age: Origins and is quite dedicated to playing his role well. Unfortunately, he is liberal with his stats which causes him to have horrible Dexterity but fantastic Charisma and Constitution. He also wanted to implement the Beilschimdts’ idea of in-game relatives and asked Kuro to have his character related to his but was dissatisfied by the result.     

Luciano Vargas: Paladin, Human. He finds the whole concept childish and informs everyone else at the table of his opinions, but still goes through with it. It is mostly because Kuro implied he was so bad at it that even Lutz could beat him at it. He does not seem to understand that the game doesn’t employ a tranditional competitive system of one winner and insists on having the ‘best’ class in the game. He finds the description of Paladin attractive, but falls short on acting the role as the embodiment of justice and righteousness that the class is usually associated with as he prefers to use cunning and deception.

Lutz Beilschmidt: Fighter, Dragonborn. Truth be told, he doesn’t really understand everything that’s going on but is just enthusiastic to be there and play. He is not really interested in the flashy classes that use magic or ones that use stealth since he feels that would be too much of a hassle. However, he is absolutely adamant on having a dragonborn character since he thinks it would be awesome. He also insists on him and Klaus being brothers in game. 

Kuro Honda: Rogue, Gnome. He was originally planning on making a tiefling or dragonborn character, but after hearing Zao’s suggestion at having their characters be related he decided to indluge him. Unfortunately for Zao, that meant that his character was now basically a gnome-sized Kuro who excelled in stealth and was very good at predicting plot points and twists. However, he does not inform the others of theories and often manages to exploit them for his own amusement.   

Flavio Vargas: Sorcerer, Half-Elf. The large number of classes made it hard for him to pick just one, but he ultimately settled on something magic orientated since he thought it would be cool to play a flashy class. He also wanted to be an elf originally but found it would be too reduntive since Roland already picked one (also it would be too annoying since Roland would insist on the two roleplaying their characters correctly). He definitely tries to charm his way out of conflicts, but is dismayed by his bad luck as his attempts almost never end up being successful. Another one who also tries to ask for preferential treatement and acts quite shocked when he doesn’t receive it.

Klaus Beilschmidt: Wizard, Dragonborn. He had originally planned on being either a gnome or halfling, but Lutz insisted on the two of them roleplaying characters who are brothers so he decided to change races to accomodate him. It does lead to some amusing moments due to the contrast between Klaus’s naturally timid personality and the rather intimidating appearance of a dragonborn. 

Roland Edelstein: Bard, Elf. His character is basically a self-insert no matter how you look at it as he decided from the get-go that it had to be an artist and extremely handsome as well. He does get into roleplaying rather quickly though, but many feel that he’s having too much fun playing a haughty elf. He also probably chooses a character name that is pretty much just a variation of his real name (ex. Rolan, Lorand or Orlando).

Julia Héderváry: Monk, Dwarf. Her picks are something of a surprise to both Flavio and Roland, who expected her to go for a Bard or something akin to this. She does prove to be rather adept at playing a monk and takes full advantage of her feats and features as well. She ends up being the unofficial leader of the party, as though Roland insists that he is the boss, it’s quite clear to everyone else that she’s in fact the one that has the most authority in the group. 

Katya Braginskya: Warlock, Tiefling. Another one who had no interest in D&D prior to Anya asking her to join in, mentioning that she could find it fun. She did not really care to look through the classes and races to make her choice and just picks at random from the choices presented to her. She does end up quite invested in her character especially when she learns that she can blast her opponents with magic.

Anastasia Arlovskaya: Cleric, Halfling. Definitely the most excited out of her siblings to play the game and does a lot of meticulous reading on classes and races. She finds Cleric to resonate the most with her and is quite happy with playing the group’s healer, though she can be sometimes overzealous in making sure everyone is healed. She was rather taken to the idea of having Viktor’s, Katya’s and her character be siblings in the game as well and was quite shocked to see that they picked different races, despite her outright stating what her race would be. She is appeased somewhat by Katya pointing out that they could be half-siblings or adopted, just like in real life.

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Waste It On Me (You, Jungkook, V) Part 2/3

🎵  “We don’t gotta go there, past lovers and warfare. It’s just you and me now.”  - Waste it On Me by Steve Aoki feat. BTS

PART 1

Y/N winced as she dabbed some ointment onto her wound, blowing on it a little before placing the bandage on. She couldn’t believe how her night just turned out. From all the things that could happen…from all the people she could meet…

Just then, her phone rang, snapping her from her thoughts. She figured it must be Taehyung as she had taken a few more minutes longer than she should’ve.

“Hello?” She answered as she grabbed her jacket hanging on her bed’s headboard. “Tae?”

“Hey, I’m here. What’s taking you so long? I’m starved!”

“I’m coming down now.” She said as she locked her door and moved towards the elevators. “Sorry, I—uh had a bit of an accident.”

“Accident? Did you trip on even path again.”

Y/N rolled her eyes. “Ha-ha funny. No, I…bumped into someone.”

“Oh. Who?”

Y/N sighed as she pressed the button, thinking it’s definitely something she didn’t want to talk about over the phone (or at all, if she was being honest).

“I’ll tell you over dinner.” She responded just as the elevator doors opened. Y/N almost dropped her phone when the last person she expected (and wanted) to see was suddenly standing there on her floor—right in front of her.

“Are you following me?” Y/N blurted without thinking, but Jungkook—who initially had a surprised expression on his face—looked mildly offended.

“No. I live here.”

Now it was Y/N’s turn to be surprised. But she wasn’t going to fall for his lies just like that. “Funny.” She scoffed. “That’s really funny, Jungkook.”

Jungkook raised a paper to her face. “See for yourself.” As she grabbed it, she borrowed briefly through it and realized that it was a contract for the lease of the dorm apartment. To make things even more surprising, he’s staying at the recently vacant room on her floor...which also happened to be right across from her.

“Whatever.” Y/N handed him back the paper hastily with a grumble before stepping into the elevator.

“Hey.”

Y/N should’ve just ignored him. That would’ve been the reasonable thing to do. But somehow, she found herself holding onto the wrong button that kept the doors opened. She looked at him, gauging his expression and was confused to find only concern in his eyes.

“What?”

“Your arm.” He pointed. “Are you okay?”

She looked down at her bandage arm. “Oh. Uh, yeah. Already treated it.” Did I just hear right? Is Jungkook asking if I’m okay?

“You fell pretty hard. Do I need to take you to a hospital? Or the campus clinic, at least?”

Y/N was even more surprised by the offer, unsure why he would be concerned for her well-being when not so long ago, he made it pretty clear that he wanted nothing to do with her.

Willing herself not to be fazed by his concern, she stood straighter and shook her head. “It’s fine. It’s just a scratch, and I can take care of myself.”

“Are you sure— “

“Yeah. Pretty sure. So, you can go on along. Wouldn’t want you wasting your time on someone who’s not worth it, right?”

She felt a rush at her words, not meaning to blurt out the memory she had tried so hard to forget. By the way Jungkook’s expression turned from concerned to dark—and if she read correctly, a little upset—he clearly picked up on the reference too. He looked like he was about to say something and she wasn’t sure if she could stay there any longer in the presence of the one boy who impetuously broke her heart into a million, tiny pieces. With that, she let her finger move over to the close button, putting an end to their conversation.

“Bye, Jungkook.” She said just as the elevator doors closed.

~~~

PRESENT

Y/N was able to calm Jen down after an hour of talking and right now, they had retreated to the back room where she had invited her to snack on some cookies she baked earlier that day. It would take at least an hour or so until the bookshop owner returned and Y/N decided to wait as she was clearly instructed not close up on her own. Not because she couldn’t handle it on her own, of course, but because the owner didn’t want to impose on her. After all, she was just watching over the shop for the day as a favor.

“I wanted to ask, Y/N.” Jen started as she munched on a cookie. “What happened to that guy who broke your heart?”

Y/N simply sighed, a small smile on her lips. “You mean after high school?” Jen nodded. “Never really saw him for a couple of years. But we met in college again.”

“Did you give him a piece of your mind?”

Y/N chuckled. “He actually became my neighbor. Lived right next door.”

“What?! That’s crazy?! How did you even manage to face that douche every day?”

Y/N paused at that, thinking how she had asked herself the same thing back then. How did she manage to face the man who broke her heart all those years ago and not want to break down in tears or hurl the nearest table lamp at him?

The answer?

“I don’t know... but one thing’s for sure, then. He was different when I met him again.”

“Different how? Like...’a changed man’?” Jen quoted with a snicker.

Y/N shrugged. “Just different.”

~~~

FLASHBACK

Y/N didn’t tell Taehyung about meeting Jungkook again. She didn’t even mention that the guy who humiliated her and trashed her feelings back then was currently living in the same building as hers—on the same floor, right across from her flat. The reason? She knew he would throw a fit and maybe give Jungkook a piece of his fist if given the chance. She also knew he would’ve offered to have her live in his apartment where she sometimes stayed when they worked on school projects together and when they had their Friday movie night rituals. But most of all, Y/N didn’t want him freaking out or worrying. She can handle this. It’s not like Jungkook was her ex. She barely made it to the friends stage; not to mention her confession was a total disaster.

I’ve moved on, she told (convinced) herself.

Jungkook as a neighbor was safe to say, uneventful as he rarely showed his face and they barely crossed paths despite living right across from each other. She figured they had very different schedules as she would often catch Jungkook leaving on his bike in the afternoon just as she’s returning to the building. Also, she never bumped into him in the mornings. She thought it was for the best. The less she saw of him, the better.

A month passed and Y/N was starting to feel comfortable with the idea of Jungkook living next door, considering she never really saw the guy and it’s almost as if he didn’t exist.

But of course, fate had different plans when on a nice, homework-less Friday night, Y/N strolled through their library’s door with a new mystery tucked in her arm, only to be welcomed by an unexpected sight.

The library was packed for some reason on a Friday night, with groups of students filling most of the tables. But that wasn’t the reason why Y/N suddenly felt her heart drum in her chest. For right there, sitting on one of the tables was Jungkook with his headphones on while hunched over the desk, writing something on a notebook.

The sight shouldn’t have affected her, really. Except the only seat available then was right across where he was sitting. Y/N had second thoughts about leaving but she decided against it, thinking how she already came all this way.

I’m a strong woman, Y/N pepped talk herself as she stood straighter and marched towards his desk. I can do this! Cute boys don’t scare me.

Once she was right in front of him, she cleared her throat, intending to get his attention and ask if the seat was taken—even though it looks like he was alone. Y/N didn’t want to be rude if he wanted some space.

However, Jungkook didn’t look up at her first attempt… and the second and that’s when she realized he had his headphones on and would probably only notice her if she danced like a chicken or—as any normal person would—tapped him. The former option seemed unlikely and so she reluctantly reached out and tapped his shoulder twice, causing the boy to look up with a jolt, wide-eyed.

Cute boys don’t scare me... she thought defiantly just as Jungkook removed his headphones, setting his doe-eyes on hers.

But this one might, a small voice said in her head and she swallowed.

“Y/N.” He said and there was genuine surprise in his tone. “Sorry, I didn’t hear you.”

Y/N was quick to snap from her trance and mustered a small smile. “It’s fine. Sorry to bother you, but I was just wondering if this seat’s taken?” She pointed at the chair across from him. “Sorry, I—the other tables are full.”

Jungkook looked around then, as if he didn’t realize he was in the library, before setting his gaze back to her. “Oh, no. Go ahead.”

Y/N blinked, unsure if she heard him right. Jungkook just smiled and offered the seat willingly, she thought as she sat; remembering how back then, he barely acknowledged her, and when he actually did, it was usually to ask her to shut up. Y/N was adamant not to make the same mistake again, however, and forced herself not to make small talk or even make the slightest of noises that could annoy him.

“What you got there?” He suddenly asked and Y/N tensed up.

Now he’s attempting small talk?

“Um,” Y/N paused for a while, still shocked. “It’s a book.”

“I know it’s a book.” He rolled his eyes. “I meant what are you reading?”

“Oh, uh. A mystery.”

“Cool.”

“I didn’t know you drew.” Y/N said, surprised to have said her thoughts out loud when she observed that the notepad he was busy with was actually a sketchpad and she could catch a glimpse of a really nice sketch of a human hand in front of him.

Jungkook seemed to become shy at the mention of it. “Not really. I just dabble when I have time. “

“What are you talking about?” She pointed at the pad. “That looks pretty amazing to me.”

He smiled. “Thanks.”

“Are you an art major, then?”

A nod. “Graphic design.”

“‘I just dabble.’” She snorted as she quoted his words a while ago. Jungkook rubbed his nape, a slight blush coloring his cheeks.

“Okay, maybe I dabble a lot more often than usual.”

She laughed. He laughed. And it was so easy forgetting like there was nothing wrong between them. But as soon as Y/N realized that, she wiped off the smile on her face and pretended to start reading, covering half her face with the book.

You’re supposed to be mad at him, damn it!

After that night, Y/N began seeing Jungkook more and more at the library. Sometimes, it would still be packed and Y/N would have no choice but to ask to share again. Jungkook would happily oblige and they would settle into—as she so hated to admit—a comfortable silence; reading or with Jungkook, drawing. Some nights, Y/N would get their first and almost always, Jungkook would arrive and ask to share her table, despite having several tables vacant. Y/N had wanted to say no. She really did, but she wasn’t sure why she couldn’t seem to find it in her to say “No, sorry. The next table’s vacant, though” every single time.

Worst of all, the boy kept making small talk and Y/N found herself falling for the trap every time, cracking at his jokes and even letting him in on what happened that day. It was almost too easy: talking with him, laughing with him… And if Y/N didn’t hate him so much, she would’ve thought of him as a friend.

A friend...she wondered as she stared at him drawing, thinking whether or not it’s a good or bad idea to be friends with him.

~~~

One night, Y/N planned to work on their charity fair tomorrow.  She and Taehyung had teamed up with a couple of their friends: Kim Seokjin, a senior and Y/N’s culinary student mentor and Kim Namjoon, also a senior and Taehyung’s close friend in his business classes, to put up a booth and sell some baked delicacies for their joint project. After their meeting, she found herself lugging boxes of ingredients to her dorm for her cupcakes. She was carrying a couple up to her room when she suddenly felt the box’s weight lighten and fingers grazing her hands that sent a shock of electricity to course through her veins.

When she craned her neck to look at the person who helped her, she can’t say she’s surprised to see Jungkook there.

“Need help?” He said and gave her a small smile that almost seemed shy.

Y/N knew she should’ve declined, not wanting to owe the guy anything afterwards. But she was desperate to get those boxes upstairs and get started on her baking for the fair tomorrow to even let her pride get the best of her.

“Thank you.” She sighed in relief as she let him take the boxes. “Could you take them to my door? I have a few more in the truck— “

“Don’t worry about it, I got it.” Jungkook said before moving towards the elevators. Y/N stopped at that, unsure how to take his generosity.

After the boxes were all settled in her room, she turned towards Jungkook who just set the final box on her doorstep.

“That’s all of it.” He said as he stood straighter before giving an awkward wave and turning away to leave.

“Jungkook,” she called, and he looked over his shoulder questioningly. “Thank you.”

For the first time in a very long while, she saw him smile. And it wasn’t the teasing smile he used on her back in high school nor was it the friendly smile he showed her during their nights in the library. No. There was something different about it. It wasn’t even shy or awkward, but one that looked genuine.

“You’re welcome.”

And that only made Y/N hate him even more. Because that smile will forever be etched in her brain, considering the way her heart skipped a bit by the mere sight of it.

That night, Y/N stayed up till half past 11 PM baking and making sure everything was set for the charity fair tomorrow. Seokjin and Namjoon were tasked for the cookies and scones while Y/N and Taehyung got cupcake duty. Taehyung had some family plans he couldn’t get out of tonight but promised to come in bright and early tomorrow to help her with the frosting. Considering she had a bit of time and the desire to sleep hasn’t set in yet, Y/N decided to start frosting the last batch she made and suddenly thought of Jungkook and how he had helped her out earlier that day. Her hands seemed to have a mind of its own when she’s all of a sudden setting aside a couple of already-frosted cupcakes and placing them into a small box. She looked at the time and saw that it’s almost midnight, and debated whether or not she should go ahead and give it to him or wait till morning.

He’s probably asleep, she thought. But another side of her also said that most college students are night owls anyways, and there’s a huge chance that Jungkook would still be awake. After a few minutes of convincing herself to go for it or back out, Y/N finally decided to just do it.

#YOLO, right?

With the cupcake box in her hands, Y/N opened her door and heard faint music playing that seemed to be coming off Jungkook’s room.

Great, he’s awake… she thought, unsure if that was a good sign or not. It’s just a cupcake, Y/N. You’re just here to thank him for helping you out this afternoon.

After a few minutes of idling, Y/N finally stepped forward and knocked on his door. The music stopped all of a sudden and she heard footsteps coming towards her...

She wasn’t exactly prepared for Jungkook returning into her life—even more so a sweaty and obviously working-out Jungkook in a muscle tee and board shorts to face her on a fine Friday night.

Emphasis on fine, she thought as she observed his biceps.

“Y/N.” He said, sounding genuinely surprised as he pushed back his wet fringe. Y/N swallowed, feeling the heat creep up her cheeks. “Hey.”

“Hi.”

Pause.

“Um. Can I help you?” he asked and his words were enough to break her from her trance.

“Oh. Sorry. I know it’s late but um, I just...I wanted to give you these.” She handed him the box. “Not sure if you’ve noticed but the boxes a while ago were ingredients for the fair tomorrow and I was making a few batches of cupcakes tonight and figured to give you some.”

“For me?” Jungkook smiled widely then as he looked down at the box and Y/N whimpered internally, wishing he would stop smiling like that.

“Yeah I mean, as a thank you for helping me a while ago.” She looked over his shoulder and caught sight of a punching bag. She returned to his sweaty state and figured he must be working out. “Sorry. I think it might have just ruined your diet.”

Jungkook laughed a little at that and Y/N would be lying if she didn’t think it was cute. “Uh yeah, but I love cupcakes.” He opened the box to peek inside and his eyes lit up. “Are these blueberry cupcakes?” She nodded. “They’re my favorite!”

“Really?” She asked as Jungkook took one big bite.

“Oh wow.” He said, eyes widening that Y/N was reminded of a little boy who just saw his presents on Christmas Day. “These are really good!”

Y/N felt pride burning in her chest. She loved it whenever someone complimented her baking.

“Thanks. I’m glad you like it.”

Jungkook placed the cupcake back inside the box and smiled at her.

Damn it! Stop smiling!

“Thank you. You just made my day with these.”

Y/N felt her heart race at his words and not trusting her speech to reply, she simply nodded and began to turn away. But before she opened her door, he called, “Y/N?”

“Yeah?”

Jungkook looked like he was about to say something but decided against it in the end. “Thank you, again. And good luck with the bake fair. I hope I can drop by and get some more tomorrow?” He smiled, but it looked almost flirty...

“You don’t have to. I can leave some for you, if you want.” She said and the moment the words were out of her mouth, she wanted to take them back.

Did I just offer him more cupcakes? I might as well have sold my soul to the devil!

But it was too late. Jungkook had caught on pretty quickly and his eyes twinkled.

“Sweet.” He simply said with a lazy smile on his lips before holding up the cupcakes again. “Thanks for this. Sleep well, yeah?”

“You too.”

“I know I will. Your cupcakes will make sure of that.” He winked and then turned to close his door.

Y/N release the breath she was unconsciously holding, her heart racing a few miles per hour as she thought of what she had just done.

I’m screwed! I’m screwed! I’m screwed! she repeated in her head like a mantra, worrying perhaps she hasn’t moved on completely, after all.

~~~

“I can’t believe we sold out everything!” Namjoon grinned as he counted the money inside their safe while Taehyung, Jin and Y/N busy themselves with clearing up their stall. It was a good thing there were no leftovers, making it easier to clean up.

“That just goes to show you have no faith in my delicious cookies and Y/N’s cupcakes.” Jin snickered as he gave Y/N a fist bump.

“No, we have complete faith in you guys.” Namjoon pointed out. “I just didn’t think people would actually buy them without even tasting them first.”

“Must be my good looks.” Taehyung smirked, and Y/N rolled her eyes. If she was being honest, the years had been kind with Taehyung and no longer was he the scrawny, glasses-wearing kid in high school, now replaced by broader shoulders and eyes that definitely had the female population of their campus melt with his gorgeous stares. Y/N once overheard some of the girls talking that he was the epitome of beauty and brains.

“No. I think it was mine.” Namjoon stuck out his tongue at him.

“No, you’re both wrong.” Jin said as he hung his arm over Y/N’s shoulders. “It was definitely mine. Didn’t you see me entertaining my future restaurant clients like a pro?”

Jin’s statement was met by snorts and laughter but none of them tried to defy him since first, Jin was a brilliant chef and second, he’s voted as the most eligible bachelor on campus.

“Oh hey, we have a couple of blueberries here.” Taehyung suddenly said as he opened a pink box tucked underneath the table. The moment she heard his words, Y/N snapped up and immediately took the box—one that held the cupcakes she had set aside for someone...

“Oh, those are mine. I uh—baked some extra.”

“Oh. Cool. Can I have one, then?” Taehyung began to reach out for the box but jumped when Y/N suddenly pulled it out of her reach.

“No!” She half-yelled, earning weird looks from her friends. “I mean...I wanted to eat two.”

“Oh come on, Y/N.” Taehyung whined as he began to reach for it again. “Gimme!!”

“Tae, no—” she shrieked out in laughter when Taehyung’s hands found her waist, poking her tickle spot. “Tae! Stop!”

“Make me.” Taehyung said as he wrapped his arms around her waist and twirled her around, earning a squeal from his best friend. Not wanting to fall off, Y/N wrapped her arms tighter around his neck, laughing as he continued to spin her around.

“Oh hey, little man. You’re late!”

Y/N and Taehyung suddenly stopped twirling to face their guest, and the couple’s smiles fell so fast it was almost comical—but for fairly different reasons.

“Oh yeah guys, this is my cousin Jungkook.” Jin said as he placed an arm around the younger, pulling him closer to his side. “He just moved in a few weeks ago.”

“It’s been a month or so, Jin.” Jungkook muttered before turning toward everyone and earning a punch from Jin who mumbled something about respecting him as his “hyung”. “Hello. It’s nice to meet you.”

Y/N felt Taehyung stiffen beside her and she hoped Jungkook wouldn’t give her any special intro—

“Y/N.” Jungkook settled his gaze on hers with a small smile on his lips.

Uh-oh. “Hi.” She replied and she could practically feel Taehyung’s judging gaze beside her.

“You two know each other?” Jin asked and while Y/N remained silent for the sake of keeping Taehyung calm, Jungkook nodded.

“She’s my flat neighbor.”

“Flat neighbor?” Taehyung echoed, his tone so unbelieving that it caught everyone’s attention.

“Oh yeah. You’re Taehyung, right?”

Taehyung faced Jungkook then, looking almost insulted.

“Yeah, he’s Tae. I told you about Namjoon’s friend, right?” Jin said and Jungkook nodded before reaching out his hand to shake. Taehyung, unfortunately, only looked down at it like he just grew an extra finger, not bothering to take it.

Jungkook seemed to get the message and retreated his hand a little awkwardly; and Y/N wanted the ground to swallow her whole then.

“So uh, I guess I’m too late, huh? I was hoping to get more of Y/N’s cupcakes.” Jungkook told Jin and glanced briefly at Y/N.

“Oh, really?” Jin said just as Taehyung mumbled under his breath, “More?”

“Yeah, I had some before. They were really good.”

“Before?” Taehyung hissed under his breath at Y/N once more. He suddenly looked down at his hand—right at the box holding two cupcakes. It was then that everything fell into place and made sense.

“Don’t worry,” Taehyung said, his voice low and dark as he handed the box to Jungkook. “Y/N saved some for you.”

Jungkook beamed at that and Y/N really wished she could disappear then. Taehyung was practically fuming beside her while here was Jungkook, oblivious to it all.

Why is that? She had no idea.

Jungkook took the box and casted Y/N a small smile. “You didn’t have to. But, thank you.”

Y/N forced a smile. “Don’t mention it.”

“Hey I’m just gonna go. I’ll be back in a bit alright?” Taehyung turned and left without waiting for anyone’s reply and Y/N knew she had a lot of explaining to do.

“I’m gonna go too. We’ll be back.” Y/N said but just before she left, Jungkook caught up to her.

“Hey, Y/N. “

“Yeah?” Y/N half turned, itching to catch up to Taehyung.

“I…” Jungkook bit her lip, looking like he was trying to build up the courage to say something.

“What is it?”

“I was wondering if you wanted to hangout sometime? Say this Friday night?”

Y/N gasped inwardly. If she didn’t know any better, it sounded like Jungkook was asking her out on a date.

?

“There’s a band playing at the bar in town.” He added. “And I... well, my friend’s in it and I wanted to ask if you’d want to come and watch?”

Y/N stared at him, unsure what to say.

“That is if you’re not busy, of course. I totally understand if you can’t— “

“Sure.” Y/N blurted and once the words were out of her lips, she couldn’t quite believe she just said that. But looking at Jungkook’s nervous smile, tripping on his words and seeming all shy to ask her out, she couldn’t find herself to say no.

Even if Jungkook was a douche and broke her heart in high school. No biggy.

Jungkook looked relieved at her answer. “Okay. Cool. Uh, Friday at six? I’ll meet you in the lobby.”

Y/N only nodded while Jungkook bid his goodbye and turned to leave. Once he turned the corner, Y/N then turned to find Taehyung—only to be faced by a very pissed off best friend. The silence was so heavy it was deafening and if stares could kill, Y/N would have long been dead by now with how Taehyung was looking at her.

“Tae, I can explain.”

Taehyung shook his head as he stepped towards her. “Explain? You don’t need to. I saw all I needed to see.”

He moved to walk past her but Y/N held on to his wrist. “Tae, please— “

“From all people, Y/N.” Taehyung scoffed as he half-turned to face her. “Why him? Why Jungkook?”

“Tae, there’s nothing going on! He’s literally just my neighbor.”

“Then what was that about?!”

“What?!”

“Oh don’t give me that, Y/N. You know pretty damn well what.”

“It’s nothing, Tae.”

“It didn’t look like nothing to me!”

“Tae, I swear. It’s nothing to be worried about!” She argued. “He’s just my neighbor.”

“Yes, a neighbor you just agreed to go on a date with.” He snapped, and Y/N swallowed. Taehyung rarely raised his voice at her and it was scary seeing him this way. “A neighbor you happened to be in love with and who broke your heart all those years ago!” He added and Y/N couldn’t find the strength to correct him. Not when the words rang painfully true…

“Tae… it’s really— “

“Or did you actually forget?” He spat and Y/N felt tears pricking her eyes then, thinking that she looked pretty pathetic with how Taehyung was wording it out.

“Did you actually forget, Y/N? What he did to you? Because back there, that son of a—” he growled. “He just acted like he didn’t know me—know us! And I don’t know what game he’s playing, Y/N, but that’s messed up! And I’m not going to watch you fall for his trap again.”

“Maybe he’s changed!” Y/N defended but she knew she was being unreasonable. Hearing herself, she wanted to scold herself the way Taehyung was doing at the moment.

Taehyung, in turn, regarded her with a confused and annoyed look. “Changed? Y/N, do you even hear yourself right now? That guy humiliated you and treated your feelings like trash in high school. And you’re saying, he’s ‘changed’?” He finger-quoted. “No. He can’t change after just two or three years. He can’t just forget and move on from that! Did he even apologize for what he did to you when you saw him again?” Y/N remained silent, making him scoff. “Of course. Why am I not surprised? That’s just like him. That’s just freakin’ like him!”

“Tae, please. Just hear me out— “

“I don’t want to hear it if you’re just going to defend him.” Taehyung said, and his voice had gone eerily calm. “I can’t hear that, Y/N. I won’t. So, please. Just tell me you won’t go on that date with him.”

Y/N opened her mouth to speak but no words seemed to come out and right then, Taehyung for her answer. His eyes turned dark, sadness and anger reflected upon his eyes.

“You know what? Fine. If you want to be blind and stupid... be my guest! Just a reminder, he’s the one who broke your heart. And was he there to pick up the pieces? No... I was! I was there, Y/N. And I’m still here.” He emphasized, eyes shaking with unshed tears. “I saw what he did to you and if I have one advice to give, it’ll be the same one I gave you all those years ago.”

Without another word, Taehyung left, leaving Y/N in tears and a heavy heart. As she stood there alone on the sidewalk, Taehyung’s words from before reverberated in her head, reminding her over and over again...

I don’t like that you like him, Y/N. He’s trouble.

~~~

PRESENT

“What do you mean he didn’t remember you? He obviously did!” Jen shouted and Y/N shushed her when a customer eyed them from the aisle.

“That’s what I thought back then, too.”

“So what did you do?”

“What anyone would do... I asked someone who might know.”

~~~

FLASHBACK

“Hey Jin, can I ask you something?”

It was early in the morning and Jin was currently marinating a huge chunk of beef in their kitchen lab at school while Y/N helped him prepare a special broth he had originally made and hoping to make an official recipe in a cook book he’s currently writing.

“Sure. What about?”

“Nothing important. Just your cousin… Jungkook.”

Jin paused from massaging the meat to give her a knowing look. “What about my cousin?”

“I don’t like him.” She said almost defensively.

“I never said you did.” Jin wiggled his eyebrows insinuatingly.

“Yeah, but your face tells me you think I— “

“Okay. What do you need to know, my dear mentee? How he likes his eggs in the morning? I’m pretty sure he likes them scrambled— “

“Jin.” She cut him off with a groan. “I’m being serious here.”

“Eggs are very serious matters, Y/N. I taught you that.”

“I just…” she sighed. “I know him. Jungkook, I mean.”

“Yes. I’m aware. I introduced you guys the other day at the fair.”

“No... I mean, I knew him before that.”

“Ah yeah, he told me you lived next door to each other.”

“No.” She huffed, thinking how this was harder than she thought. “I mean, I know him from way back… like in high school. We used to be schoolmates.”

Jin’s smile faltered from his lips, then. “Oh.”

“Oh?” She tilted her head, unsure why Jin suddenly looked a little sad. “What’s wrong?”

“You’re asking me...why he can’t remember you.” Jin stated rather than asked, confusing her even more. “Is that why Taehyung looked so affronted the other day?”

Y/N wanted tell him that was partly the reason, not wanting to get into the messy bits of their relationship before.

“Kind of.”

Jin nodded in understanding. “Well, first of all, I’m not sure if I should be the one telling you this when you can ask him about it yourself. But since we’re here and I don’t think there’s any harm in telling… you should know that he’s not doing it on purpose.”

“What do you mean?”

“My cousin is suffering from memory loss.”

“Memory loss? You mean he has amnesia?” Jin nodded. “How—?”

“Terrible bike accident a couple of years ago. He uh—crashed, pretty hard. It’s a miracle he’s alive now, if I’m being honest. He fought hard through the surgery and was in coma for about a year or so. Nobody ever thought he’d even wake up.”

Y/N covered her lips to suppress her gasp. No wonder Jungkook disappeared back then. He wasn’t in jail or moved to a new place…

He was in a coma.

“So yeah, that accident caused a severe damage in his brain—specifically the part that processes memories. He hardly remembers events that happened prior to his accident and is still struggling remembering faces and names. But he’s gotten through it with a bit of help from his family. He remembers me now,” he chuckled but there was no amusement in it. “All I’m saying is that if you guys were close then, don’t be mad that he can’t remember. It’s not his fault. And hey, maybe the more time you guys spend together, he’ll remember bits and pieces of your past. That’s how it worked for me; showed him pictures and stuff. Really helped.”

After their conversation, Y/N worked silently throughout the day, taking all the information in. A lot of things made sense now: like how Jungkook acted all nice around her now and how he never did once bring up their past.

Why he never apologized…

But right then, Y/N was torn between staying away and accepting his fate and move on, because Jin was right about Jungkook not being at fault for not remembering and they could maybe start anew. If she stayed away though, Jungkook would surely ask why she was avoiding him and how on earth will she tell him about their past?

How could she be mad at him for something he can’t even remember?

Y/N felt the beginnings of a headache from thinking too hard. At the end of the day, however, as she was walking down the street towards her apartment building, she looked at the pedestrian and a thought came to her like a bulb lighting in her head. She remembered one tiny detail she had almost missed to consider...

If Jungkook truly lost his memories like Jin had said, then how on earth did he know her name the first night they met when he almost ran into her with his bike?

To be continued.

Come scream at me for more... :P

- Kaye Allen

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I top party & festival fino a fine giugno 2018

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29/06 Martin Garrix @ Milano (Ippodromo) #edm

30/06 Molo Street Parade - Rimini Dalle 11 si balla con Holi Dance Festival on the beach, poi Fedez e pure Marco Faraone e 80 dj su 10 pescherecci #tuttogratis #ilpartypiuhot

Popfest Gallipoli (LE) by Musicaeparole @ Praja - Gallipoli dall'1 luglio a fine agosto con tanti protagonisti della scena pop mondiale (Bob Sinclar, Gianluca Vacchi, Ofenbach) #pop 1/7 Opening con Silvio Carranom 5/7 Ema Stokholma, 5/7 Jessie Diamond, 12/7 Daddy's Groove, 19/7 Michael Feiner, 22/7 Merk & Kremont, 23/7 Ofenbach, 25/7 Bob Sinclar, 30/7 VINAI, 2/8 Nicky Romero, 5/8 Sunnery James & Ryan Marciano, 9/8 Gianluca Vacchi, 12/8 Bob Sinclar, Albertino @ Cave - Gallipoli 13/8 Tujamo, 15/8 Deejay Time Reunion, 16/8 Gianluca Vacchi daytime event @ Hotel Gallipoli Resort, 16/8 Benny Benassi, 19/8 Dj Antoine, 23/8 Klingande, 26/8 Mike Candys

Cocoon @ Villa delle Rose - Misano Adriatico (RN) ogni mercoledì #electro #techno @chic mercoledì 4 luglio: Ilario Alicante, James Mile mercoledì 11 luglio: Luca Agnelli, Dana Ruh mercoledì 18 luglio: Patrick Topping, Carola Pisaturo mercoledì 25 luglio: Kölsch, Markus Fix mercoledì 1 agosto: Sam Paganini, Anthea mercoledì 8 agosto: Ilario Alicante allnight long mercoledì 15 agosto: Maurizio Schmitz + guest TBC mercoledì 22 agosto: Adam Port, Carola Pisaturo

7-8/7 Kappa FuturFestival - Torino con il meglio della techno  #elettronica 7/7 Adam Beyer, Amelie Lens, Andrea Oliva, Apparat, Body & Soul, DJ Tennis, Sam Paganini, Solomun, The Martinez Brothers, Timo Maas (...) 8/7  Derrick May, Fatboy Slim, Hot Since 82, Ilario Alicante, Luciano, Marco Carola, Ralf, Robert Hood, Seth Troxler (...) Il 7 c’è pure il grande, grandissimo Eric Prydz con il suo nuovo show Holo. Chi è a Treviso legga sotto che c’è una bella sorpresa.

17/7 The Chainsmokers @ Umbria Jazz - Perugia #easy #pop

Milano Summer Festival @ Ippodromo San Siro: 14/7 Holi Dance, 17/7 Justice + Mgmt + Parcels, 20/7 The Chemical Brothers + 2manydjs

Pyrex Arena Santa Cesarea Terme (LE) 14 e 15 agosto: super techno! #elettronica 14/8 Chris Liebing, The Martinez Brothers, Marco Carola 15/8 Joseph Capriati, Solomun, Paul Kalkbrenner

1/9 Eric Prydz @ Home Festival - Treviso con lo show Holo #genius NB: Prydz suona anche a Torino

27-29/9 roBOt 10 @ Bologna c/o Macro #festival #chic #sperimentale

1-4 novembre ‘18 18esimo Club to Club Torino. Tra gli altri artisti: Aphex Twin,  Avalon Emerson, Beach House, Blood Orange, Courtesy, David August, Dj Nigga Fox, Equiknoxx, Fever Ray, Iceage, Josey Rebelle, Obongjayar, Serpentwithfeet, Skee Mask, The Italian New Wave (Bienoise & more)  #chic #avantgard (...) 

COSA TI SEI PERSO? MA NON DISPERARE!!!

10 - 13/06 Mdrnty Cruise 10 - 13 giugno da Genova. Si balla con Ricardo Villalobos, Black Coffee, Stephan Bodzin (…) http://www.alladiscoteca.com/post/173025074014/mdrnty-cruise-10-13-giugno-da-genova-si-balla

2-3/6 Nevalon - Montalcino (SI) #arte-avanguardia dettagli in arrivo, ma si beve bene...

9/6 Richie Hawtin presenta il live show multimediale Close a Villafranca (Verona) il 9 giugno con Joseph Capriati, Ben Klock (…) #elettronica http://www.alladiscoteca.com/post/172617474499/richie-hawtin-presenta-il-show-show-close-a

9/6 Liberato a Milano

1/6 Bob Sinclar @ Villa Bonin - Vicenza #pop #house

01/6 RICHIE HAWTIN @ Cocoricò Riccione

1-3 giugno Happy Birthday Samsara Beach - Riccione! Con tanti super dj tra cui Federico Scavo #beachparty

1-3/6 Nameless Barzio (LC) con Steve Angello, Don Diablo, Axwell & Ingrosso, Armin Van Bureen, Fabri Fibra Sfera Ebbasta, Guè Pequeno (...) #edm #hiphop

1/6 IDOL meets Tenax @ Beach Club - Versilia djs: Marco Faraone, Alex Neri, Diego Donati, Philipp + Cole, King Joshua

2/6 Shade Bergamo (al coperto) con Marco Carola, Marco Faraone, Ilario Alicante, Green Velvet, Chris Liebing, Apollonia (...) #elettronica Tutti i dettagli qui

24/5 Molto club & restaurant - Carate Brianza Happy Birthday!

Giovedì 24 maggio si festeggia dalle 20 e 45 alle 3 del mattino. Aperitivo, cena o pizza per chi vuole mangiare all'aperto. Alla musica live pensano Banane & lamponi, più tardi il sound anni ‘80 - '90 è quello del di Corrado Apeddu #chic&dinner

25/5 Matura Party “La Notte Prima degli Esami” @ Mr.Charlie / Cà Margherita - Lignano (UD)

E’ il tradizionale appuntamento rivolto ai maturandi. Come raccontano gli organizzatori, che da ben 12 anni curano questo evento, è un party che chiude l'esperienza della scuola e inaugura un altro capitolo della vita.

27/5 Ben Dj  fa scatenare Dobermahn @ Terrazzamare / Jesolo (VE)

Domenica 27 maggio ad esempio in console all'esclusivo evento Dobermann al Terrazzamare di Jesolo (VE). Dobermahn è un party unico, in cui musica e coreografie in stile etnico si fondono per creare un show coinvolgente. #vipparty

27/5 Ralf on the Beach @ Bisceglie - Baia delle Sirene

dalle 17 alle 02 by Musicaeparole (che da quest’estate collabora anche con Guendalina, che apre il 23 giugno) #beachparty

29/5 Fidelio Milano Opening Summer Party @ B38! #fashion #house #fidelio

Al mixer ovviamente Stefano Pain ed Ale Bucci e tutta la Fidelio Family a ballare fino all’alba…

18/5 Steve Aoki @ Just Cavalli Milano #edm #torte #deluxe

19/5 Vida Loca @ #Costez - Telgate (BG) #hiphop #pop #show #reggaeton tutti i party Vida Loca qui: goo.gl/Gtx8rh

19/5 Opening! Praja Gallipoli! con Mark Lanzetta #pop #salento

20/04  Fatboy Slim @ Fabrique - Milano #pop #edm #house

21/4 Dj Antoine @ Nikita #Costez - Telgate (BG) #pop #edm #show

21/4 Vida Loca party # Big Club Torino & Peter Pan Riccione #pop #party #show

21/4 Prince - A Celebration @ Vinile - Milano  “Sono passati due anni da quel nefasto 21 aprile 2016, ma la musica di Prince è e sarà sempre con noi info: https://www.facebook.com/events/626873317648023

17-22 aprile Design Week Music Festival @ Milano, P.zza Castello dalle 18 (ingresso libero) con tanti dj tra cui Riva Starr, Soulcpal, Wolf + Lamb, Peter Kruder, Flashmob, Stefano Fontana) #elettronica #arte-avanguardia

21 - 25/04 Aperyshow @  Piazzola sul Brenta TUTTO per beneficenza con tanti super dj tra cui Angeli, Cristian Marchi, Tommy Vee (...) http://www.alladiscoteca.com/post/172991544431/aperyshow-2018-21-25-piazzola-sul-brenta-tutto #edm #pop #show

24/04 Claudio Coccoluto @ Noir - Lissone (MB) #house #club

Nina Kraviz: 24/4 Il Muretto Jesolo, 30/04 Social Music City, 1/5 Arenile di Bagnoli (NA) #electro #techno #djgirl

25/04 Ralf in Bikini a Cattolica #beachparty #elettronica

25/04 Samsara Beach - Riccione #beachparty #pop

25/4 Papeete - Milano Marittima  (RA) #beachparty

28/4 Bob Sinclar @ Mob Palermo, 25/7 Bob Sinclar, 9/8 Gianluca Vacchi @ PopFest c/o Praja Gallipoli  (LE) #edm #pop #house

Bob Sinclar in Italia 28/4 Popfest Palermo, 30/04 Cromie Castellaneta (TA), 1/6 Villa Bonin (Vicenza), 12/8 PopFest Cave - Gallipoli con Albertino

28/4 - 1/5 Sunbreak Malta - Club MTV, lo spring break più pazzo d'Europa fa ballare con Ofenbach, Timmy Trumpet, Federico Scavo, Valentina Vignali... ok è Malta... ma è quasi Italia è l’organizzazione è anche italiana. #edm #pop #house

29 - 30/04 Music Inside Festival @ Rimini (Fiera, Castel Sismondo, Teatro degli Atti) #elettronica Sul palco tra gli altri Loco Dice, Dixon, Ilario Alicante, Len Faki, Luca Agnelli, Nicole Moudaber, Sam Paganini, Santè b2b Sindey Charles (...)

30/04 Gigi D’Agostino @ Villa Bonin - Vicenza

30/04 Social Music City a Milano riparte con Nina Kraviz, Stephan Bodzin (live) e Tale Of Us… #elettronica http://www.alladiscoteca.com/post/172514283383/social-music-city-a-milano-riparte-il-30-aprile

1/5 Cosmo, Sfera Ebbasta @ Primo Maggio Roma #pop #italia #hiphop http://www.alladiscoteca.com/post/172618933609/primo-maggio-roma-suonano-anche-cosmo-e-sfera

1/5 One Day Music Festival a Catania con Sam Paganini, Boys Noize, Stephan Bodzin #elettronica http://www.alladiscoteca.com/post/172617546739/15-one-day-music-festival-a-catania-con-sam

[songshopcompilation]

List of Songs, Part 1 (A-L)

Click here for Part 2 (M-Z, #, untitled)

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Aching

Adam G

Afraid of Fear

Ain’t for Kids

All That’s Left

All Your Grace

Always Friends

Always In My Heart (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Always One With Me (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

And Her Cats

Anime, All Right

Arianne

Autumn (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Back to the Future 2

Banana and Pickle

Be My Bride

Beard

Becoming

Beer and Boobs

Ben

Benjamin

Best and Worst

Best Hug Ever

BFFL

Bittersweet

Blood That Binds Me

Bon Jovi

The Boss Ain’t Here (Back of Deems)

Boundaries

Boundless

The Boys

Brianna’s Song

Brought to Life

Buckle

Building Eternity (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Bunny’s Song

Called It

Can’t Accept It

Can’t Argue With That

Can’t You See

Canals

Cat People

Cats?

Chains

Change Nobody

The Chase

Cheerfully

Cherish

Chia 2

Chili’s

Chord for You

Chris Sherry

Clean Slate

Coffin

Coming up Blank

Companion (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Comprehension

Convince Me

Cool as God

Cradle of Heartz

Dad Song

Dawn

The Days We Shared

Dealing

Deep Into You

Defenses Down

Dependence

Deserve It

Disrupt the Stillness

Distance Means Nothing

Don’t Call It Middle-Age

Don’t Give Up, Michael (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Don’t You Dare

Dream to Catch

Easy, Hard, Whatever

Edris Sayyah

Emily’s Enough

Enemy Again

Engorged

The Epic

Escape

Etched

Evaporate

Ever Since Our Awkward First Words

Every Little Ounce

Everything We’ve Seen

Ex-Man

Exclusively You

Fat and Bored

Finally

Firefly (Saves the Day cover)

Flesh Repairs

For Sam

Forgiven

Freckles

Futures Glow

Gave Me You

The Genuine

Get Through It

Get Well Soon

Gilmore (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Ginger Bear

A Girl Out There

Give It Back!

Glide (A Song for Car-Jumper)

Glorious Waste

Good Sir Bemis Are You Out There

Got Your Guts

Greatest Cliché

The Greatest Nerd

Grocery Carts

Harm + Loathing

Hayden

Head Comes Alive

Heavy Ghost

Hellkid

Here for

Here for You, Indeed

Here We Go

Hide Away from Me

Hope Tonight

How Max Broke a String On the Final Note of the Song

How Much

How You Saved Me

I Am One With You

I Belong Underwater (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

I Could Be the President

I Could Never (Agree)

I Have to Mention

I Like That You’re Different

I Still Believe In You

I Used to Be Faithful

I’ll Shine

I’ll Sing for You

I’m Over You

I’m Still Here (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

If It Led Me

In Case You Should Misconstrue

In Honor of You

In Memorium

In Ottawa

Insanely In Love

Invincible

It Paid Off

It Will Be Sublime

It Won’t Be Forever

It’s the Moment

Jared the Great

Jeremiah

Jew

Jiggawatts

Joe’s Song

Josh’s Song

Jubilant

Keeps Me Going Strong

Khonsu

Kick the World’s Ass

Kill Me

Kindred (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Kitrina

Kitties In Space

KJAM

Kristey

LBL (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Learned from What You Did

Left With Neither

Legacy (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Lemons

Let’s Begin Girl

Let’s Stay Up

Like a Phoenix

Like Actually Incredibly Crazy (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Like Crazy (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Like from an Egg I am Born Again (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

Like I Would

Look Down

Look Into My Soul

Looking for Me

Lost Children of PKL

Lying Within Me

Lynsie Grace (feat. Sherri DuPree-Bemis)

[geneticandunattainable]

Best Songs of 2017, Tracks 1-50 The Compiled List

1. Ryan Adams – “To Be Without You” 2. Rose Cousins – “Freedom” 3. Kate Rhudy – “I Don’t Think You’re An Angel (Anymore)” 4. Rostam – “Gwan” 5. Rhiannon Giddens – “At the Purchaser’s Option” 6. Kesha – “Praying” 7. Sampha – “(No One Knows Me) Like the Piano” 8. Sylvan Esso – “Die Young” 9. K. Flay – “Blood in the Cut” 10. Now, Now – “SGL” 11. Bayonne – “Fallss” 12. Litany – “Bedroom” 13. SZA – “20 Something” 14. Electric Guest – “Oh Devil” 15. Calvin Harris feat. Frank Ocean and Migos – “Slide” 16. George Taylor – “I Hear Your Song, Sweetness” 17. Carly Rae Jepsen – “Cut to the Feeling” 18. Alice Merton – “No Roots” 19. Sammy Brue – “I’m Not Your Man” 20. Middle Kids – “Your Love” 21. Kelela – “LMK” 22. Mondo Cozmo – “Hold On To Me” 23. Whitehorse – “Kicking Down Your Door” 24. All Our Exes Live in Texas – “Boundary Road” 25. Chris Stapleton – “Broken Halos” 26. St. Vincent – “Pills” 27. Beck – “Dear Life” 28. Lydia Loveless – “Sorry” 29. Amber Mark – “Lose My Cool” 30. Aimee Mann – “Goose Snow Cone”  31. Valerie June - “Shakedown”  32. Tift Merritt feat. Sam Beam – “Wait For Me” 33. Cloves – “California Numb” 34. Khalid – “American Teen” 35. Haim – “Want You Back” 36. Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit – “Hope the High Road” 37. Son Little – “Blue Magic (Waikiki)” 38. Jessie Ware – “Love to Love” 39. Niall Horan – “Slow Hands” 40. Gold Star – “Come With Me” 41. Dua Lipa – “New Rules” 42. Portugal. The Man – “Feel It Still” 43. Ten Fé – “Another Way” 44. Grizzly Bear – “Three Rings” 45. liv – “Heaven” 46. Milky Chance – “Doing Good” 47. Ella Grace – “Wild Roads” 48. Harry Styles – “From the Dining Table” 49. Aldous Harding – “Imagining My Man” 50. Hippo Campus – “Way It Goes”

[agron-rps]

Current Lip Sync Songs Masterlist

Listed in alphabetical order by song title.

A.

Aaron’s Party - Aaron Carter   (Richard Harmon, Pink: Round 1)

Africa-Toto   (Camila Mendes, Pink: Round 1)

Ain’t My Fault- Zara Larsson  (Nina Dobrev, Green: Round 2)

Ain’t No Other Man- Christina Aguilera  (Tyler Seguin, Orange: Round 2)

Ain’t Your Mama- Jennifer Lopez   (Perrie Edwards, Gold: Round 2)

All Eyez On Me- 2Pac   (Stephen James Hendry, Red: Round 2)

All I Do Is Win- DJ Khaled  (Sophia Bush, Pink: Round 1)

All The Small Things- Blink 182  (KJ Apa, Blue: Round 1)

Alpha Omega- MGK   (Dylan O’Brien, Orange: Round 2)

American Girl- Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers  (Elizabeth Olsen, White: Round 1)

Applause- Lady Gaga   (Courtney Act, Gold: Round 1)

Auston Matthews- SVDVM  (Auston Matthews, Red: Round 2)

B.

Baby One More Time- Britney Spears   (Ashley Benson, Purple: Round 2)

Back To Black- Amy Winehouse   (KJ Apa, Blue: Round 2)

Bad At Love- Halsey  (Hailey Baldwin, Red: Round 1)

Bad Blood- Taylor Swift  (Matt Daddario, Gold: Round 2)

Bad Medicine- Bon Jovi   (Sharon Needles, Blue: Round 2)

Barbie Girl- Aqua   (Alaska Thunderfuck 5000, Turquoise: Round 2)

Beauty and The Beat- Justin Bieber   (Sarah Drew, Blue: Round 1)

Believer - Imagine Dragons  (Lili Reinhart, Red: Round 2)

Best of Both Worlds- Hannah Montana   (Alfie Deyes, Pink: Round 2)

Bet On It- Zac Efron   (Zac Efron, Orange: Round 2)

Bitch- Meredith Brooks   (Lily James, Pink: Round 2)

Black Widow- Iggy Azalea feat. Rita Ora  (Jennifer Morrison Blue: Round 1)

Blow Your Mind (Mwah)- Dua Lipa   (Adelaide Kane, Yellow: Round 2)

Bohemian Rhapsody- Queen  (Taylor Swift, Green: Round 1)

Born To Run- Bruce Springsteen  (Troian Bellisario, Blue Round 1)

Bottoms Up - Trey Songz feat. Nicki Minaj  (Eliza Taylor, Green: Round 2)

Bye Bye Bye- NSYNC  (Darren Criss, White: Round 1)

C.

Cake By The Ocean- DNCE   (Olivia Holt, Green: Round 1)

Can’t Stop The Feeling- Justin Timberlake   (Chris Wood, Blue: Round 2)

Careless Whisper - George Michael  (Karlie Kloss, Pink: Round 1)

Caught Up - Usher  (Richard Harmon, Pink: Round 2)

Celebrity Status- Mariana’s Trench  (Marie Avgeropoulos, Yellow: Round 1)

Chandelier- Sia   (Marzia Bigonin, Yellow: Round 2)

Chantaje- Shakira   (Paulo Dybala, Orange: Round 1)

Chunky - Bruno Mars  (Joe Jonas, Green: Round 1)

Come To My Window- Melissa Etheridge   (Elizabeth Olsen, White: Round 2)

Confident- Demi Lovato  (Nina Dobrev, Green: Round 1)

Cool Girl- Tove Lo   (Adelaide Kane, Yellow: Round 1)

Cruella De Vil- Selena Gomez   (Genevieve Gaunt, Gold: Round 2)

D.

Daddy Lessons - Beyonce (Zendaya, Yellow: Round 1)

Dance Dance- Fall Out Boy  (Rose McIver, White: Round 1) 

Despacito-Luis Fonsi feat. Daddy Yankee  (Auston Matthews, Red: Round 1)

Dick In A Box- Justin Timberlake   (Katie Cassidy, White: Round 2)

Dirrty- Christina Aguilera  (Marie Avgeropoulos, Yellow: Round 2)

Diva- Beyonce   (Saoirse Ronan, Pink: Round 1)

Dog Days Are Over- Florence and The Machine   (Toby Regbo, Orange: Round 1)

Don’t Blame Me- Taylor Swift   (Keegan Allen, Red: Round 2)

Don’t Cry For Me Argentina- Madonna   (Bianca Del Rio, Gold: Round 2)

Drop It Like It’s Hot- Snoop feat. Pharrell  (Tom Holland, Gold: Round 1)

Dream On- Aerosmith   (Delta Goodrem, Orange: Round 1)

Drummer Boy - Misterwives (Sarah Hyland, Purple: Round 1)

E.

Emperor’s New Clothes- Panic! At The Disco  (Charlie Heaton, Turquoise: Round 2)

Encore/Numb mashup- Jay Z and Linkin Park   (Katie Cassidy, White: Round 1)

Everybody (Backstreet’s Back)-Backstreet Boys   (Dominic Sherwood, Turquoise: Round 1)

Everybody Wants To Rule The World- Tears For Fears   (Danielle Panabaker, Green: Round 1)

Ex Factor- Lauryn Hill  (Tori Kelly, Orange: Round 1)

Express- Christina Aguilera from Burlesque   (Olivia Holt, Green: Round 2)

Eye To Eye- From The Goofy Movie   (Brendan Urie, Green: Round 2)

F.

Felices Los 4- Maluma   (Paulo Dybala, Orange: Round 2)

Fight Song- Rachel Platten  (Madelaine Petsch, Pink: Round 1)

Filthy- Justin Timberlake   (Justin Bieber, Gold: Round 1)

Finesse- Bruno Mars feat. Cardi B.  (Dianna Agron, Blue: Round 2)

Flawless- Beyonce   (Amber Heard, White: Round 2)

Footloose- Kenny Loggins   (Jack Lowden, Turquoise: Round 2)

Forgot About Dre- Dr. Dre feat. Eminem  (Stephen Amell, Turquoise: Round 2)

Free Your Mind- En Vogue  (Tori Kelly, Orange: Round 2)

Fuck You- Lily Allen   (Selena Gomez, Purple: Round 1)

G.

Galway Girl- Ed Sheeran  (Domhnall Gleeson, Yellow: Round 2)

Gangsta’s Paradise- Coolio feat L.V.   (Lily Collins, Blue: Round 1)

Gas Pedal (cover)- Mike Stud  (Tyler Seguin, Orange: Round 1)

Girl I Know- Avenged Sevenfold   (Hailey Baldwin, Red: Round 2)

Girl Next Door - Saving Jane  (Eliza Taylor, Green: Round 1)

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun- Cyndi Lauper  (Zac Efron, Orange: Round 1)

Give Your Heart A Break- Demi Lovato   (Adore Delano, Yellow: Round 1)

Gold Digger- Kanye West   (Phoebe Tonkin, Green: Round 2)

Gotta Tell You - Samantha Mumba  (Caity Lotz, Yellow: Round 1)

Green Light- Lorde   (Lily Collins, Blue: Round 2)

Gucci Gang- Lil Pump  (Henry Cavill, Orange: Round 1)

Gust Of Wind- Pharrell feat. Daft Punk  (Bill Skarsgard, White: Round 1)

H.

Hallelujah- Rufus Weinwright  (Blake Lively, Turquoise: Round 1)

Happy- Pharrell   (Witney Carson, Yelllow: Round 1)

Harder To Breathe- Maroon 5.  (Chris Evans, White: Round 1)

Havana- Camila Cabello  (Bella Hadid, Yellow: Round 1)

Heartbreaker- Pat Benatar   (Willa Holland, Yellow: Round 1)

Hello-Adele   (Alaska Thunderfuck 5000, Turquoise: Round 1)

Here I Go Again- Whitesnake   (Skeet Ulrich, Purple: Round 2)

Hips Don’t Lie- Shakira  (Gal Gadot, Red: Round 2)

Holding Out For A Hero- Bonnie Tyler   (Benedict Cumberbatch, Red: Round 1)

Hold Me Tight Or Don’t - Fall Out Boy  

Hold On We’re Going Home-Drake feat. Majid Jordan  (Alycia Debnam-Carey, Blue: Round 1)

Home - Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes. (Zoe Sugg, Orange: Round 1)

Honey, I’m Good - Andy Grammar  (Grant Gustin, Red: Round 1)

Hook-Blue’s Traveler   (Roman Josi, Green: Round 1)

Hopeless Wanderer- Mumford and Sons  (Alex Galchenyuk, Orange: Round 2)

Hound Dog- Elvis Presley   (Bob Morley, Blue: Round 1)

Hot In Herre- Nelly  (Bob Morley, Blue: Round 2)

Hotline Bling - Drake (Zendaya, Yellow: Round 2)

Hot ‘N Cold- Katy Perry  (Kendall Jenner, White: Round 1)

How Long - Charlie Puth

Humble- Kendrick Lamar   (Taylor Hill, Gold: Round 1)

I.

I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith   (Chris Wood, Blue: Round 1)

I Get Off-Halestorm   (Alexandra Park, Blue: Round 2)

I Just Had Sex-  The Lonely Island feat. Akon  (Sophia Bush, Pink: Round 2)

I Like it - Enrique Iglesias (Crystal Reed, Yellow: Round 1)

I’m Real- Jennifer Lopez feat. Ja Rule   (Emily Bett Rickards, Purple: Round 2)

I Wanna Dance With Somebody- Whitney Houston   (Ashleigh Murray, Blue: Round 1)

I Want It That Way-Backstreet Boys   (Taissa Farmiga, Turquoise: Round 1)

I Want To Break Free- Queen   (Adam Devine, Blue: Round 2)

I Was Made For Loving You- KISS  (Adam Devine, Blue: Round 1)

I Write Sins Not Tragedies- Panic! At The Disco  (Rose McIver, White: Round 2)

Ice, Ice, Baby - Vanilla Ice  (Melissa Benoist, Turquoise: Round 2)

Idiot Boyfriend- Jimmy Fallon   (Margot Robbie, Pink: Round 2)

IDGAF- Dua Lipa   (Harry Styles, Pink: Round 1)

If I Had You- Adam Lambert   (Bill Skarsgard, White: Round 2)

If U Seek Amy- Britney Spears  (Natalie Dormer, Orange: Round 1)

Instruction- Jax Jonest feat. Demi Lovato, Stefflon Don  (Kat McNamara, Orange: Round 2)

In The Navy- Village People   (Alexander Skarsgard, White: Round 2)

It Must Have Been Love- Roxette   (Emmy Rossum, Red: Round 1)

It’s All Coming Back To Me Now - Celine Dion (Aaron Rodgers, Purple: Round 2)

It’s Gonna Be Me- NSYNC   (Darce Montgomery, Purple: Round 2)

It’s My Life- Bon Jovi   (Darce Montgomery, Purple: Round 1)

It’s The End of The World- R.E.M.  (Stephen Amell, Turquoise: Round 1)

J.

Just Like Fire- P!nk  (Jennifer Morrison Blue: Round 2)

K.

L.

Ladies Choice- Zac Efron   (Alexandra Daddario, Green: Round 1)

Let It Go- Idina Menzel from Frozen  (Blake Lively, Turquoise: Round 2)

Let You Go- Machine Gun Kelly   (Justin Bieber, Gold: Round 2)

Lights Down Low - MAX feat. gnash (Jordan Fisher, Blue: Round 1)

Like A Prayer- Madonna   (Danielle Panabaker, Green: Round 2)

Like A Virgin- Madonna  (Ashley Benson, Purple: Round 1)

Living La Vida Loca- Ricky Martin   (Delta Goodrem, Orange: Round 2)

Livin’ On A Prayer- Bon Jovi   (Skeet Ulrich, Purple: Round 1)

Look What You Made Me Do- Taylor Swift   (Domhnall Gleeson, Yellow: Round 1)

Lose Yourself- Eminem  (Daisy Ridley, Orange: Round 2)

Love Doesn’t Stand A Chance- From Once Upon A Time  (Zayn Malik, Green: Round 2)

Love on the Brain - Rihanna (Nick Jonas, Red: Round 1)

Love You To Death- Type O Negative  (Henrik Lundqvist, Pink: Round 1)

M.

Mama Don’t Make Me Put On The Dress Again- Trixie Mattel   (Katya Zamaolodchikova, Purple: Round 2)

Mama Say- Betty Who   (Gigi Hadid, Gold: Round 1)

Mamma Mia-Abba  (Emilia Clarke, Turquoise: Round 2)

Man! I Feel Like A Woman- Shania Twain   (Harry Styles, Pink: Round 2)

Mi Gente - J Balvin, Willy William

Milkshake- Kelis  (Henry Cavill, Orange: Round 2)

Miss You - Louis Tomlinson (Natalia Dyer, Yellow: Round 2)

Monster- Nicki Minaj   (Vanessa Hudgens, Gold: Round 1)

My Heart Will Go On- Celine Dion   (Cole Sprouse, Green: Round 2)

My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light ‘Em Up) - Fall Out Boy (Nick Jonas, Red: Round 2)

N.

New Rules- Dua Lipa   (Bella Hadid, Yellow: Round 2)

Never Gonna Give You Up- Rick Astley   (Alfie Deyes, Pink: Round 1)

Nothing Compares To Uou - Sinead O'Connor  (Trixie Mattel, Turquoise: Round 2)

No Rain - One Blind Melon   (Stephen James Hendry, Red: Round 1)

O.

Often-The Weeknd   (Selena Gomez, Purple: Round 2)

One Dance- Drake   (Amber Heard, White: Round 1)

Only Girl (In The World)- Rihanna   (Gigi Hadid, Gold: Round 2)

On Top of You - Enrique Iglesias  (Jordan Fisher, Blue: Round 2)

Oops... I Did It Again- Britney Spears  (Saoirse Ronan, Pink: Round 2)

Out of Your Mind - True Steppers, Dane Bowers feat. Victoria Beckham   (Willa Holland, Yellow: Round 2)

P.

Paper Planes- M.I.A.   (Perrie Edwards, Gold: Round 1)

Paris in the Rain - LAUV

Part of Your World-  From the Little Mermaid   (Lindsay Arnold, Turquoise: Round 1)

Perfect-Ed Sheeran   (Emilia Clarke, Turquoise: Round 1)

Play That Funky Music- Wild Cherry   (Tom Hiddleston, Gold: Round 2)

Poker Face- Lady Gaga  (Natalie Dormer, Orange: Round 2)

Pony- Ginuwine  (Jason Momoa, White: Round 2)

Pour Some Sugar On Me- Def Leppard   (Danneel Harris, Yellow: Round 2)

Power- Little Mix   (Kat McNamara, Orange: Round 1)

Praying- Ke$ha  (Lea Michele, Yellow: Round 1)

Pretty Fly For A White Guy - Offspring  (Aaron Rodgers, Purple: Round 1)

Prince Ali- Robin Williams from Aladdin   (Camila Mendes, Pink: Round 2)

Purple Rain- Prince   (Toby Regbo, Orange: Round 2)

Q.

R.

Rap God-Eminem  (Alex Galchenyuk, Orange: Round 1)

Rebel Yell- Billy Idol   (Andy Biersack, White: Round 1)

Redneck Woman- Gretchen Wilson   (Danneel Harris, Yellow: Round 1)

Reet Petite- Jackie Wilson   (Jack Lowden, Turquoise: Round 1)

Reggaeton Lento (Bailemos)- CNCO   (Emeraude Toubia, Purple: Round 1)

Repeat Stuff- Bo Burnham  (Dylan Sprouse, White: Round 1)

Replay- Zendaya   (Tom Holland, Gold: Round 2)

Rockin’ Robin- The Jackson 5   (Ian Harding, Gold: Round 1)

Rhythm Nation- Janet Jackson (Sarah Drew, Blue: Round 2)

River - Eminem feat. Ed Sheeran (Sarah Hyland, Purple: Round 2)

Roar- Katy Perry  (Marzia Bigonin, Yellow: Round 1)

Roses- Outkast   (Lindsey Morgan, Red: Round 1)

Run The World (Girls)- Beyonce  (Troian Bellisario, Blue Round 2)

S.

S&M-Rihanna   (Alexandra Park, Blue: Round 1)

School’s Out- Alice Cooper  (Zayn Malik, Green: Round 1)

Sex Addiction- L.A Guns   (Henrik Lundqvist, Pink: Round 2)

Sex On Fire- Kings of Leon   (Zoey Deutch, Green: Round 2)

Sexy Back-Justin Timberlake   (Chris Evans, White: Round 2)

Shake It Off- Taylor Swift   (Lucy Hale, Purple: Round 2)

Shape Of You- Ed Sheeran (Madelaine Petsch, Pink: Round 2)

She’s Country- Jason Aldean   (Jensen Ackles, White: Round 1)

She’s In Love With The Boy- Trisha Yearwood  (Carrie Underwood, Red: Round 1)

She’s So High - Tal Bachman. (Zoe Sugg, Orange: Round 2)

She Thinks My Tractor Is Sexy- Kenny Chesney  (Roman Josi, Green: Round 2)

Should’ve Said No- Taylor Swift   (Lea Michele, Yellow: Round 2)

Shout- Lulu & the Luvvers   (Benedict Cumberbatch, Red: Round 2)

Sign of the Times - Harry Styles   (Louis Tomlinson, Pink: Round 2)

Sister Christian- Night Ranger  (Justin Baldoni, Pink: Round 1)

Sk8ter Boy - Avril Lavigne   (Trixie Mattel, Turquoise: Round 1)

Slow Hands - Niall Horan   (Louis Tomlinson, Pink: Round 1)

Smooth Criminal - Michael Jackson  (Grant Gustin, Red: Round 2)

Somebody Told Me- The Killers  (Dianna Agron, Blue: Round 1)

Something Bad - Carrie Underwood and Miranda Lambert  (Natalia Dyer, Yellow: Round 1)

Somewhere Over the Rainbow- Israel “IZ” Kamakawiwoʻole  (Jason Momoa, White: Round 1)

Sorry- Justin Bieber   (Emeraude Toubia, Purple: Round 2)

Sorry Not Sorry- Demi Lovato   (Niall Horan, Orange: Round 2)

Spice Up Your Life- Spice Girls   (Courtney Act, Gold: Round 2)

Starman- David Bowie   (Daisy Ridley, Orange: Round 1)

Stacy's Mom - Fountains of Wayne  (Joe Jonas, Green: Round 2)

Stay The Night- James Blunt  (Keegan Allen, Red: Round 1)

Step In Time- Dick Van Dyke from Marry Poppins   (Emmy Rossum, Red: Round 2)

Stronger (What Doesn’t Make You Stronger)- Kelly Clarkson  (Carrie Underwood, Red: Round 2)

Sucker for Pain - Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons  (Cara Delevingne, Turquoise: Round 2)

Superbass- Nicki Minaj   (Kendall Jenner, White: Round 2)

Swalla - Jason Derulo feat. Nicki Minaj & Ty Dolla $ign   (Sebastian Stan, Turquoise: Round 2)

Swish Swish- Katy Perry  (Matt Daddario, Gold: Round 1)

T.

Talk Dirty- Jason Derulo feat. 2 Chainz  (Justin Baldoni, Pink: Round 2)

Talk that Talk by Rihanna feat. Jay Z (Alycia Debnam-Carey, Blue: Round 2)

Tear You Apart- She Wants Revenge  (Dylan O’Brien, Orange: Round 1)

Telephone- Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce  (Darren Criss, White: Round 2)

That’s My Girl- Fifth Harmony  (Lucy Hale, Purple: Round 1)

That’s What I Like- Bruno Mars   (Alberto Rosende, White: Round 1)

The Bare Necessities- Phil Harris   (Tom Hiddleston, Gold: Round 1)

The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavinge  (Chyler Leigh, Green: Round 2)

The Boys (English Ver.) - Girls’ Generation  (Crystal Reed, Yellow: Round 2)

The Champion- Carrie Underwood   (Brie Bella, Pink: Round 2)

The Creep- The Lonely Island   (Dylan Sprouse, White: Round 2)

The Greatest- Sia   (Taylor Hill, Gold: Round 2)

The Look- Roxette   (Phoebe Tonkin, Green: Round 1)

This Ain’t A Scene It’s An Arm’s Race- Fall Out Boy   (Brendan Urie, Green: Round 1)

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things - Taylor Swift   (Karlie Kloss, Pink: Round 2)

Thong Song- Sisqo   (Sebastian Stan, Turquoise: Round 1)

Thrift Shop-Macklemore   (Taissa Farmiga, Turquoise: Round 2)

Tightrope - Janelle Monae  (Melissa Benoist, Turquoise: Round 1)

Tough Lover- Christina Aguilera from Burlesque   (Alexandra Daddario, Green: Round 2)

U.

Under A Paper Moon- All Time Low  (Charlie Heaton, Turquoise: Round 1)

Unwritten -  Natasha Bedingfield (Chyler Leigh, Green: Round 1)

Uptown Funk- Mark Ronon feat. Bruno Mars.  (Lindsey Morgan, Red: Round 2)

V.

Valentina- Alaska Thunderfuck 5000   (Sharon Needles, Blue: Round 1)

Violent Femmes - Blister in the Sun (Cole Sprouse, Green: Round 1)

W.

Wait (The Whisper Song)- The Ying Yang Twins  (Margot Robbie, Pink: Round 1)

Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go-Wham!   (Ashleigh Murray, Blue: Round 2)

Welcome To The Black Parade- My Chemical Romance  (Zoey Deutch, Green: Round 1)

What About Us- P!nk  (Gal Gadot, Red: Round 1)

What Dreams Are Made Of - Hilary Duff.  (Lili Reinhart, Red: Round 1)

What Lovers Do- Maroon 5 feat SZA   (Emily Bett Rickards, Purple: Round 1)

What Makes You Country- Luke Bryan  (Brie Bella, Pink: Round 1)

Whatever It Takes - Imagine Dragons  (Cara Delevingne, Turquoise: Round 1)

White and Nerdy- Weird Al Yankovic   (Ian Harding, Gold: Round 2)

Work It - Missy Elliott  (Caity Lotz, Yellow: Round 2)

Worth It - Fifth Harmony  (Lindsay Arnold, Turquoise: Round 2)

Wrecking Ball- Miley Cyrus  (Taylor Swift, Green: Round 2)

X.

Y.

Yonce/Partition-Beyonce   (Vanessa Hudgens, Gold: Round 2)

You & I- One Direction   (Alberto Rosende, White: Round 2)

You Don’t Know Me- Jax Jones feat Ray-Z   (Genevieve Gaunt, Gold: Round 1)

You Gotta Be- Des’ree   (Lily James, Pink: Round 1)

You Got The Right Stuff- New Kids On The Block   (Alexander Skarsgard, White: Round 1)

Young, Dumb and Broke- Khalid   (Niall Horan, Orange: Round 1)

You’re The One That I Want- From Grease   (Witney Carson, Yelllow: Round 2)

You Shook Me All Night Long- AC/DC   (Andy Biersack, White: Round 2)

You’ll Be Back - Jonathan Groff from Hamilton   (Bianca Del Rio, Gold: Round 1)

Z.

Zombie- The Cranberries   (Adore Delano, Yellow: Round 2)

#s.

7th Element- Vitas   (Katya Zamaolodchikova, Purple: Round 1)

[izziebash]

Dancing With Our Hands Tied → Adzie

Who: @izziebash & @theliadam

When: Saturday, February 17th 

Where: 1152 Wizard Way → The Charming Dance Hall

What: After being set up by Tia and Sage, Izzie and Adam decide to make the best of their date at the Valentine’s Ball despite being fresh out of heartbreaks themselves. 

Izzie heaved a sigh in front of her bedroom mirror. Here she was, all done up for the ball, in skin-tight red velvet and a mask and everything. It was one thing when she was wearing this for herself, prepared to be at the dance alone and just letting loose, but now that she had a date? It all felt so different. Now she found herself thinking, What would Adam think?which was bad, she knew, but it kept coming up in her head. Shaking away her nerves, Izzie grabbed her clutch and exited her room to meet Adam in the living room. "Your date has arriiiiiiived," she announced in sing-song, punctuating with jazz hands before taking in the sight of her date. "Wow, you...clean up," she nodded. She said it the way one would say 'you clean up well', but couldn't bring herself to articulate more than four words apparently.

Adam had done his best to look his best, a feat that normally wasn't hard but his confidence had taken a bit of a hit earlier that week so even as he fixed his dragon tie in the reflection of his phone and saw that he looked sharp, he felt only average. He felt almost bad for Izzie. His roommate had always been cute but lately she'd gone from beautiful to bombshell and she deserved to be spending the night with someone who was more fun than he currently was, but Tia and Sage had chosen him and he would have a hard time saying no to STI. He was waiting in the living room, glad that at least they lived together and he wouldn't have to wait outside of someone's house like a loser, when she emerged from her room. He felt his jaw drop. "Wow," he breathed as she announced herself. She looked incredible. It made his ego both inflate and deflate to think that he was matched up with a girl like this and it was all he could do to keep from just staring at her. "Thanks. You clean up, too. You really clean up," he smiled, looking at her up and down before meeting her gaze. "Congratulations. We're not even there yet and you're already the best looking girl there," he chuckled, offering an arm to her so they could start making their way to the festivities.

Izzie gave a modest shrug when Adam reacted to her, knowing that her dress looked nice. It was why she bought it! But still, getting that kind of attention from a boy was weird. But she liked to think that he felt just as awkward as she did about this whole thing, and he looked great, too, so they were really in the same boat. She laughed as he repeated her phrase, blushing because it sounded even dumber coming back to her, but also slightly charming coming out of him. "I meant you clean up well. Nicely. Et cetera," she joked, clapping a hand over her pink cheeks before he complimented her yet again. "Stop," she hit his chest with her clutch and shook her head, unable to shake the smile on her face as she held onto his arm and made her way toward the door. "Well I'm lucky that I've got the best-looking guy on my arm, as well, cause it would just be unfair to be with anyone else," she teased as they exited the cottage. Both of them being fresh out of relationship-type-things, it felt nice to just indulge in a little bit of ego-boosting between the two of them. Izzie hadn't felt bad, per say, after her breakup, but she had kind of purposely avoided dating and things of the like. Getting back out there, especially with someone who kind of knew what she was going through, was nice.

Adam chuckled a little bit, finding it hard not to smile as she hit his chest with her clutch. Before, that paired with her compliments and the way they both looked equally excellent would've been enough for Adam to decide he had a brand new crush, but he was more hesitant now than he'd been before Astrid, before Charlie. Maybe this didn't have to be that serious. Every time he tried serious he failed, and so far this was just nice. It was cute. It was light. And maybe it didn't have to be any more or less complicated than that. It might even be a good thing, to have someone to hang out with when there wasn't the pressure of impressing her like a real Date-date would. And if this wasn't a real date-date, he didn't have to hold in truths that might make a girl think less of him right. "We make a good pair," he agreed as they walked down the street. "Although I do want to say sorry now in advance. In case I end up being a fun-sucker tonight. Like, don't get me wrong, I'm glad to be going out with you, but I've felt like kind of a downer for a while now. So if that happens you have full permission to ditch me for the second best-looking guy in the room, no hard feelings." He kind of smiled as he said it like it was a joke even if he meant it. "See? I'm a downer already!"

Izzie cocked a brow when Adam gave his preemptive apology. She wondered what he could possibly be sorry for already, but then it kind of dawned on her why he might be a little down on this night. "You're not a downer!" she exclaimed, tossing her head back with laughter. "But thank you for the warning, I'll be sure to scope out Louis Dupont early enough so my ditching you will be nice and stealthy," she retorted with a smirk before allowing her tone to go a bit softer. It would be nice to knock this out of the way sooner rather than later. "You still feeling a little down about Trashhands -- Astrid!?" The slip-up of calling the girl by her STI-brand meanish nickname was mostly a mistake, but maybe something in her subconsciously wanted it to come out. She always thought it was funny, and nothing better to cheer someone up than to (literally) trash-talk their ex. "Sorry, that's a mean nickname, she's a lovely girl, my sorority sister..." She shook her head, as if chastising herself for being so rude. "She's missing out," she offered, though she wasn't even sure if that's what had Adam down in the dumps. Izzie figured it couldn't hurt to let him know of that very true fact.

Adam wrinkled his nose at her pick of second hottest guy, but it worked in eliciting a laugh from him. "Not who I would've picked but I guess you have better authority in picking out hot guys than I do," he admitted with a smile on his face that froze and sank when she mentioned Astrid. He could practically hear Winnie in his head telling him that mean nicknames like Trashhands were one of the many reasons he shouldn't be out with a member of STI, but he shook it away - Iz was always Winnie's favorite and he trusted her judgement more than his own sometimes. Still, the nickname wasn't the nicest thing in the world. " Astrid is pretty great, yeah. I mean, I was just getting to know her, but it always sucks to know that you aren't what somebody's looking for. Sometimes it'd just be nice to finally be that for somebody, you know?" He chuckled self-consciously and nodded in agreement. "It gets a little tiring being the wrong choice. But, uh, that's just more downer talk, really." He bit his lip, remembering her recent thing with their other roommate and wondered if she maybe understood more than he'd thought. "And I'm glad to be out with you, because anyone not getting to spend the day with you? They're missing out too."

Izzie laughed, glad that she could get him to chuckle too. "Eh, he's a Zude, we Pis gotta stick with our men," she joked, wrinkling her nose. Even she could tell how weird all this sorority-fraternity crap sounded coming out of her mouth, but 'Pi' had become her second language. She worried for a moment that Adam would resent her mentioning Astrid by the look on his face. When he corrected her, she nodded, taking note that he didn't find it as funny as she did, but listened to him. Not that she had much experience dating, but she could imagine that it really sucked never being the first choice, especially when it came to girls like Charlie and Astrid. Both really cool. "Yeah, I can see how that might suck. I find it hard to believe that girls out there aren't looking for hot soccer players with great hair, though. So maybe you've just gotta keep looking," Izzie offered with a smirk before he mentioned who had ditched her. When things had ended with that guy, it was because he was going away, and that was okay, but he also said something about them not "fitting" anymore. That she was changing or something, and she just said that if he couldn't accept her evolving into who she always wanted to be, then they wouldn't work in the first place. "...Thanks. He would've preferred to be out with sweater-vests-and-plaid-skirts Izzie, anyway."

Adam nodded while he smiled, the fraternity stuff making total sense to him. It was a system, like the @ pack or something, but bigger, and Adam was all for finding a place where he belonged. It was why he loved the soccer team so much, aside from actually feeling like he was talented enough to be there. He grinned at the compliment but shrugged at the mention of 'keeping on looking'. It sounded tiring. "You would think the hair or the soccer would reel them in but here I am, still fishing," he laughed, shaking his head at the idea of someone picking and choosing which version of Izzie they liked most. "Don't get me wrong, the sweater vests and plaid skirts were a look, but you're still Izzie, no matter what you're wearing. I can't see how more guys aren't out there looking for exactly that. Maybe you've just gotta keep looking," he suggested back, bringing back her words and meaning them 100%.

Izzie playfully held her hands up like she was holding a fishing rod, mimed like she was tossing it in Adam's direction, and "reeled him in". "Well I've caught you for the night, and til we find you someone even more worthy, I'll toss you back," she smirked, mentally patting herself on the back for the great analogy. Maybe this was what they both needed -- a friend first and foremost. But for now, they both just needed to let loose a little. Not that she hadn't been doing plenty of that at Pi parties, but still -- Izzie had been wound up enough of her life to warrant letting loose whenever she felt like it. "Thanks," she said quietly, giving a small giggle in response to Adam turning her phrase back on her. They were coming up on the dance hall now, and Izzie could already hear the music blaring from the ballroom all the way down the street. "So what's the game plan tonight, General? I must warn you, it's gonna be pretty hard to tear me away from the dance floor," she teased.

Adam caught onto what she was doing the moment she threw the fake line at him. He dropped her arm and threw his arm over her shoulder like he was being pulled in even closer. "Good catch," he complimented, nodding his head. "And good idea." It was easy to be comfortable with Izzie, easier than he'd thought, really. And maybe he was still a little sad but he was also willing to have a good time, especially now that it felt like they both needed it. They may not be a couple, but they could be a team for tonight. The music was almost intimidating but it was also more inviting than he could've imagined and his chest puffed up at being called General. He could do this. They could do this. "We should develop a signal for when you need me to get you punch or snacks or something. As your escort, it's the least I can do. But otherwise, dancing till we drop sounds like a solid tactic to me. Let's go for it!"

Izzie smirked. "Good catch indeed!" she beamed, leaning into his embrace and wrapping her arms around his waist as they walked. She felt Adam's chest inflate a little when she called him General, and gave it a few pats to emphasize her point. Her head flew back with laughter when he suggested they have a code signal, and she gave a hum with contemplation. "Keeping me sustenated while I dance? A true gentleman!" she exclaimed, not even caring that 'sustenated' wasn't even a word. Old Izzie would have cared. "And every time we think about things and people that make us sad? We dance it out! No room to be a downer when you've got the power of boogie-ing on your side."

Adam was increasingly glad that Tia had texted him in the first place, because he couldn't imagine going through with his original plan now, which was just to show up and try to be happy. It was comforting to know that the breakup buddies at least wouldn't be left alone tonight. "But of course! Would you expect anything less from me?" he joked, then whistled at her next suggestion. "That's going to be a lot of dancing, but that's a good thing. I bet we'll do it so much and so well that we'll forget we were dancing to fight the downer away anyway." He looked at her with a smile and, with a voice more serious than anything he'd said yet, he said, "Thanks again, for coming with me." Clearing his throat, he looked forward again dramatically onto the fray. "Are you ready, partner?"

Izzie giggled, tightening her grip around Adam’s waist with a content sigh. Yes, this was going to be a good night. Dancing, letting loose, and having fun with someone new. That was definitely something she needed in her life right now, and couldn’t believe she got it from some weird Tia and Sage setup. “So muchand so well!” she repeated with a smirk, “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you dance and now I am so intrigued since you threw the gauntlet down like that. Watch out, dance floor.” The laugh in her voice faded to a small, awkward chuckle when Adam’s tone got more serious, and Izzie couldn’t help but feel a bit of a warm feeling in her gut when he thanked her. There was really nothing like finding a good thing that was right under one’s nose. “Yeah, thanks to you too,” she replied with a warm smile. Then, eyes followed his gaze to stare down the door to the dance hall. “Bring it on,” Izzie said dramatically, before grabbing Adam by the hand and nearly skipping inside.